Week 1 is done. All seven days. I've been posting these one at a time, but I wanted to put the whole first week together in one place, cover and all. This is the "Feel" week of the challenge I'm building, "I Don't Know Her Yet," and I didn't just write it, I walked through every single day of it myself first. Seven days of going all the way in. The truth I never said out loud. The feelings I used to bury. The letter I'll never send. The little girl I was before any of it. The night everything changed. Everything I lost. And finally, everything that survived. I'm not going to lie, some of these days took everything out of me. But I feel lighter than I have in a long time. And I understand my own story so much deeper now that I've actually seen it on paper. The full Week 1 is attached if you want to read it. Thank you for walking this with me. Week 2 is coming. Song for Day 7-Still Rising: https://open.spotify.com/track/2lnlessxob7MdLmEXDAvUu?si=df587f9d593b438e Thank you, Ravyn

First day of something I’ve never said out loud “ I’M NOW FOCUSING ON JUST ME “ !!!

"Music can change the world because it can change people." — Bono Don't stop creating because you're still learning. Every artist starts somewhere, and every step forward brings you closer to the vision you're building. Keep going. We've got this!😉

Never does a day pass by where I’m not thinking of those dreadful days of reality that I endured . There have been a few days where I have been able to allow myself to quickly ignore it due to being busy but is tough to do so. Still can’t stop feeling responsible that I didn’t see the danger that some women were in . A couple I knew personally who had amazing personalities and one I never saw without the most amazing smile no matter what she went through. Growing up with someone you thought would never resort to such evil. Someone who you thought you could trust that even if they had a bad day with someone that they claim they love, they could never physically hurt anyone. I reflect on the times that we would go out to a party to enjoy music and entertainment and remember how my friend would challenge women , verbally attacking them and making them feel like trash because they wouldn’t make him happy the way he wanted them too. He suffered greatly from insecurity and wanted to control every woman he came in contact with. He hid this from us, but at times we would catch him yelling at a woman for some reason and finding out he was angry because some refused to even dance with him. He would call them out their name which we immediately engaged and confronted him and told him how unnecessary and disrespectful that was. Oh, he would apologize and act like he was sorry, but never did we see that there was an internal anger that was building up inside of him that one day would explode into violence and resulting in the loss of life of women who never deserved to lose it , but especially in that way. There are of course different types of abuse that people go through. I even know men who have been abused by women, something that I know is not easy for people to accept, but is a fact that women can be violent and can be evil as well as men can. However, when men do it, no doubt it speaks volumes and is far more noticeable. However, when it is a actual friend, someone that you grew up with that knows better and was raised better yet still inside allowed himself to turn into an evil person who would be responsible for taking the lives of six women. To finally find out who it was that committed these crimes was a terrible pain to have to endure. Not only the pain of knowing people lost their lives, but the pain of finding out it was someone that was considered one of my best friends. Someone who I thought I knew and to find out that they were not the person that I thought they were. Then they have the nerve to blame their actions on the use of drugs and to think that I’m supposed to somehow have sympathy for them like that’s some sort of excuse. There’s no place for violence against anyone unless self-defense is involved but just because someone doesn’t accept your advances and would actually treat you as if they own you is completely unacceptable and makes no sense whatsoever. So now I realized I can find a way at least through my music to hopefully bring some sort of relief, some sort of comfort to anyone who may have dealt with abuse in any kind of form or way. The song, especially that I wrote entitled “I Was So Blind” as a song, especially for a man who has recognized the pain that he has caused, regardless of how little and truly is repentant , a man who truly wants to apologize sincerely for what he has done but doesn’t know how to correctly and verbally express himself believing it might not sound sincere enough . So I’m hoping this song reaches any man out there who really is truly sorry for resulting to any type of abuse and may not be able to say it, but be able to at least play my song, hoping that the person who listens to it will be able to truly find a way to forgive them, although going to be difficult and may not be able to fully trust, but at least see the sincerity in the fact that this individual wants to make that change. If this song can help someone reach someone and especially save someone and I know I’ve done at least something that represents help and hopefully comfort to deal with the pain of going through abuse of any kind , I wish for this song be that source of comfort to anyone who need it .

Hey Family, Day 4, done. And this one hit different than the others. This was extremely heavy but l am feeling lighter now that I spoke/wrote it out. Instead of looking at what was done to me, I went all the way back to who I was before any of it. That little girl I used to be. Funny, full of life, always the one making everybody smile, but already aching for love at home and not getting it. I learned how to smile through things way too young. Going back and seeing her again was tender. And it reminded me that I did know what real love felt like back then, even when it wasn't coming from where it was supposed to. My full Day 4 page is below if you want to read it. There's a song that goes with this one, and even though I haven't released it yet, I went ahead and attached it if you want to hear it. Thank you for reading, and for walking this journey with me. I appreciate any and all feedback. Thank you, Ravyn 😍