Itās a brand new year š
Today itās the start of a change of pace for me. I plan on doing things differently this year. Itās a time to change and what better day to start. So here on day one I will share with you the way I incorporate change. Itās a little woo woo so if youāre not into being open this isnāt the space for you. Being vulnerable here so bear with me, itās a hard thing to put into words, and Iām sure some things will be lost in translation, but here goesā¦. Who am I - the biggest question of all. And a simple one to answer from a space of soul. But letās turn up the heat and ask it from egos perspective. So in my first session of the year I got a huge, and I mean huge, awakening. Ego - I am of service (ok thatās not a bad thing), below others so I must give (now thatās not so nice) and as a giver I donāt deserve to receive (ok now thatā really feels bad). Letās look at the energy behind receivingā¦. And I really start to squirm - literally pulling away and trying to leave - I am so repelled by the thought of receiving (now we ask why and when this became my vibration) Itās in my throat and upper chest, like a weight, itās thick and heavy and very, very negative. It hasnāt always been there, itās new in this lifetime. Itās a choice (by soul??) yes by soul. (A punishment?) no an experience. (The lesson?) With wealth we give frivolously, without thought for how the receiver feels. We give to make ourselves feel good, better even, and to help without attachment. (Please remember this is my personal experience in a past life, not the truth) Iāll clarify here, my past life feels like Iām in a castle or some sort of noble place and I am from family generational money. So here (now) I have to give thru service (not wealth) and the negativity in receiving forces me to continue to give without receiving !!!! (Those who know me know this to be true. And know that I really struggle to receive) So to change this vibration I need a truth, and itās only a truth for me (so it may not be for you) and itās often hard to find. So I have to ask questions here till I feel a shift. That shift only comes when you have a realisation of a belief that doesnāt serve you ā¦.