24 days streak with maths on the app "Brilliant" is actually a win. Actually the third day was the first win but I'm not used to registering wins...particularly not "small" wins. 😅 It's a win also that I finally recognised and registered it as a win. 🤓 It's quite funny. 🌱

Just did the Identity Transformation worksheet and named something I've been carrying for decades: the "little wife" / Invisible Pleaser identity. The woman who stays soft enough to disappear, who gives her gifts away for free, who lives behind a menu of "ors" instead of one clear yes. This morning I cut my hair short for summer. He likes it long. I like it short. That haircut is the whole new identity in one act - I chose me. Ready for the breathwork. Playing full out this time.

💭 Reflection: "I'm helping my mother with her moving to a new house in the city (from a country/old farmhouse). My father past away January 2025 so it's a hard process for her also to say goodbye to their house through 50+ years. It's almost like her first time moving and she has just turned 77 years old. I've move a lot in my life I know how hard it can be if you're not ready for this kind of a process. Wanting to have everything with her to the new house is impossible. What to let go seems just as impossible. Just to say that it has an impact on me too regarding energy and attention to keep up with other things like '6 weeks transformation' program. 👀😁 But it's all good. I'm not in doubt. I don't wobble. It is what it is. I'm not judging myself I'm just going with the flow and shapes of things. Tetris. 🌱" 📊 Wellbeing Scores: 😊 Happiness: 6/10 ⚡ Energy: 6/10 😌 Calmness: 7/10 🌙 Sleep Quality: 6/10 🔥 Motivation: 7/10 ⭐ Average: 6.4/10 ✅ Activities from yesterday: 🛏️ Good Sleep 🌙 Early Bedtime ☀️ Morning Sunlight 💧 Stayed Hydrated 🌬️ Breathwork 🌿 Grounding 🌃 No Screentime at Night 🚶 Walk 🥗 Healthy Eating 🍺 No Alcohol 🍬 No Added Sugar ☕ No Late Caffeine ⏰ Intermittent Fasting 💊 Took Supplements 🥩 Hit Protein Goal 🍳 Home Cooked Meal 😌 Low Stress Day ✨ Positive Mindset 📵 No Social Media 🌅 Focused Morning 🌄 No Screentime in Morning 🧠 Learning 🎧 Educational Podcast 🎓 Online Course 👥 Qualit y Time 🤝 Helped Someone 🍽️ No Phone at Dinner

💭 Reflection: "I finished my cohort 1 and commitment letter. I forgot to attend to cohort 3! Wtf?? 😅" 📊 Wellbeing Scores: 😊 Happiness: 6/10 ⚡ Energy: 6/10 🎯 Focus: 6/10 😌 Calmness: 8/10 🌙 Sleep Quality: 8/10 🔥 Motivation: 7/10 ⭐ Average: 6.8/10 ✅ Activities from yesterday: 🛏️ Good Sleep 🌙 Early Bedtime ☀️ Morning Sunlight 💧 Stayed Hydrated 🌬️ Breathwork 🌃 No Screentime at Night 🚶 Walk 🥗 Healthy Eating 🍺 No Alcohol 🍬 No Added Sugar ☕ No Late Caffeine ⏰ Intermittent Fasting 💊 Took Supplements 🥦 Ate Vegetables 🍳 Home Cooked Meal 😌 Low Stress Day 📵 No Social Media 🌅 Focused Morning 🌄 No Screentime in Morning 📅 No Meetings 🧠 Learning 🎧 Educational Podcast 🎓 Online Course 🍽️ No Phone at Dinner

Completed on 5/26/2026 MY COMMITMENT LETTER I'm here because I'm rebuilding myself from scratch. I made a pure break with everything - the psychiatric system, the job counselors, my old life. I stood up for myself. I was consistent. I wasn't afraid. And now I'm in the silence after the demolition, and it feels like nothingness, and I've been telling myself I don't know who I am. But I'm here because I can't just sit and watch anime till the day I die. I'm here because there's no reason to live on if I can't find a purpose. I'm here because with this "being here," I'm stopping myself from stopping myself. That's enough of a reason. That's the whole reason. MY BIG ROCK One shape, placed daily. No picture required. My brain doesn't work like a puzzle - it works like Tetris. I don't get to see the finished image before I start. I only get the shape that's falling right now, and my job is to place it. So I'm done trying to imagine six weeks from now. I'm done trying to know who I'll become before I do anything. I'm done waiting for the vision to arrive before I commit. I commit to placing one shape per day. The shape might be a walk. It might be breathing. It might be showing up to the classroom. It might be 30 seconds of a check-in. The picture will emerge from the shapes - not the other way around. THE TRUTH I ALREADY KNEW I don't need more knowing. I've studied what I'm "supposed to do" my whole life. I'm drowning in interpretation, observation, and analysis. I've been watching my own life like a movie I'm critiquing instead of one I'm living in. Eating is currently my only high-success activity because it's the only thing I do without first studying whether I should. Everything else gets analyzed until it fades away. The work isn't more thinking. The work is placing the shape before I've finished interpreting it. MY COMEBACK PROTOCOL When I fall - and I will - I commit to: - Daily check-in (even 30 seconds counts - just open it, breathe, close it) - Never miss two days in a row (one miss is human, two is the fade-away starting) - Show up to the classroom. Show up to the online lessons. That's my floor. Even if everything else collapses, that one shape gets placed.