The melting of the Ego, Transition and the dawning of Consciousness is not for the weak. It is a painful process for many reasons as it is the destruction of Self as we knew it and that is all we understood. It hurts because all we know comes from lies. Stories we have been conditioned to believe and stories our own heads have told us to make sense of the senseless. The world seams crazy here. LOL It is. To see the truth for what it is, and it is what it is as truth has no contradictions. To realize it was yourself who fooled yourself, then to detach from all you know and believe and sit in the unknowing until the dawning. Now this journey is only for Lightwarriors. What an uncomfortable time. There is a bending of the mind and all balance is lost. Reality and life as you know it twists. Its Dark here and Fear usually starts to pour in. The pain is taken to higher realms as the mind searches for new reason, new understanding. The Painbody is in full flight and there is nothing but Darkness. The Self talk starts...... "I hate it here, this place is crap, i don't want to be here. I want out NOW!!!!!" "I am so alone, nobody cares. I give so much and get nothing back. That's it, no more. I will give no more. If these are the rules I'm glad i know them, we will see who wins now." Oh dear and the dark side of the soul fights for control of the Matter. Now this is where it ends or should i say begins for most. Back into the dream and illusion they fall, only for the cycle to come around at a later date. I know this vacuum well, I was in the abyss for over 40 years. Then I started Meditating. I don't really know the reasons why, just one day I changed. All these things came together inside of myself and this was one and it, with many more things, would become my new way of life. Key, no matter what you believe, is to turn off that mind. Forget all you know and go deeper with in. With a quiet mind, it is here you learn to communicate and connect beyond your wildest dreams.