@Cristina R thank you so much! I realize so much that was being pleaded for me to realize. She will have her soulmate back. I see all that was there for me to do. The blindness is gone. Our children will have their daddy back in the best version he has even been.

Nearing the end of my 21st day sober. I’ve begun to really manifest my thoughts and realizations a lot more clearly. It’s kind of an emotional roller coaster because you constantly see things you have been completely blind to yourself about. Moral distortion, self awareness, basic human altercations, basic core role awareness, selflessness, compassion, self care, and much more are drastically impaired from alcoholism. It’s frightening how much alcohol truly takes from its host. The lack of control of yourself and the forgetfulness of one’s wrong doings due to the mind being so numbed to a mere soulless entity. It’s terrifying! Constant soul recovery, daily exercise, constant aa meetings, and above all a true life with god, drastically changing one’s ways down to the single thought of negatively through one’s days really sets a solid foundation to rebuild one’s consciousness, soul, body, and relations. Really wishing I would have done this way before because it’s like I’ve been cleansed and washed away from my darkness. Have lost 18 pounds. That concludes update 2.0