Can you see yourself anywhere in this? Or am I the only one? 😄 For a very long time, one of my strongest subconscious needs was to create harmony around me. I needed to make sure everybody was okay. Everybody was taken care of. Nobody was upset. Nobody needed anything from me that I hadn’t already noticed and handled. Because somehow, if everybody around me was okay, then I could be okay. Then I could relax. Well… at least in theory. 😂 Because there was another layer to this. I also had a strong need to validate my existence through doing things really, really well. Accomplish something. Excel at something. Be useful. The more outstanding, the better. And somewhere at the very end of that list was me. After everybody was okay, after the work was done, after I had accomplished enough - IF there was still some time and energy left maybe I would take care of myself. Maybe I would even allow myself to simply enjoy my life for a moment. Except even my hobbies weren’t safe. 😂 Give me a hobby and I could turn it into a competitive sport in no time. I needed to get better at it, master it, compete, finish a race, win something or eventually become a teacher of the damn thing. Congratulations. My hobby is now a job. The physical and internal practices of yoga have taken me on a very long and beautiful journey, and slowly, these parts of me have become quieter. I’m learning what it feels like to take care of myself simply because I am worthy of being cared for. To do something because it feels good. Not because it makes me better. Not because I can teach it. Not because I can accomplish something with it. Not because I’m trying to become some shiny new “better version of myself.” No more of that. I’m okay. And what’s different now is that “I’m okay” is no longer just a nice concept I understand intellectually. I’m experience it.🙌 So, over the next eight weeks, I’m going to share a little of my journey of deliberately making time for myself every day. What you might not be able to see on camera is that even the internal lens through which I practice yoga has changed.