Meditating on hard emotions
This morning I was reviewing my tasks for the day and one of them is working on a training course that has been rolling around in my head for a while. During contemplating this I felt the rise of doubt, not knowing how it will turn out or how I will even take the next step, whatever that step could be! I sat feeling this doubt and started to meditate. I fully allowed that doubt to fill all of my consciousness, witnessing how it grew and changed as I watched it, but not reacting, just observing. Then I conjured what for me is the opposite feeling, the feeling of confidence. I sat and let confidence wash over every aspect of consciousness and observed it. I then oscilated between the two, doubt and confidence, witnessing how both could rise and fall within my consciousness. This practice helps us deal with the harder emotions in life and also reminds us of impermanence and that it will surely change as it is experienced. Always feel your emotions, witness them, no need to react. But have the courage to truly feel what you feel in every day and every moment.