I’m 20 years old, and I feel so lost in my life. I took a LOA this semester from college in order “find myself.” I traveled to 5 European countries over the span of 2 weeks. This trip was amazing, but now that I’m back home, I feel like I fell back to where I was before— lost and confused. Making friendships is hard for me because I find it difficult relating with people my age, yet I crave connection. I would go back to college, but going back feels like a waste of time because I’m not passionate about my major. I’ve researched countless careers and nothing has ever seemed like something I want to spend the rest of my life doing. I try my best to remain positive. I do yoga and meditation often, yet I can’t seem to suppress this fear. While I feel somewhat contented with my life now, I fear this how I will be forever— lonely and unfulfilled. I desperately crave fulfillment, purpose, and connection, yet these things are so difficult for me to imagine. I guess my question is, does anyone know how to stop this feeling? I want to be happy, but it’s difficult when my life feels so unguided. I feel like I’m alone walking down a desert path without a compass trying to find my way to water.

What is your Jungian archetype? I got the King 😊Note: if you want a pie chart breakdown of your archetype percentages, you will have to take this quiz twice in a row. Its a pretty quick quiz, though, it took me about 10 minutes to complete. Cheers! https://archetypes.jilecek.cz/#google_vignette

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Over the past couple months, I’ve been doing well spiritually and mentally. I meditate everyday, and find peace and happiness in the little things. However, a few days ago, an incident happened that made me feel like my past self again. There’s this guy who I’ve known practically my entire life. I work for his father, and I’m best friends with his whole family. We’ve always had a little “thing” for each other. He tried pursuing me a few times when we were kids, but we were just kids and I wasn’t ready yet. However, just a few days ago, he asked me on a date. I went out with him and everything was great. I came back home that night feeling so happy and loved. The next morning though, his sister called me, asking me if I’d ever date him, and I said no. I’m not sure why I said no. Internally, I was screaming to say yes, but for some reason I can’t. I’ve never been in a relationship before. I want to be loved, I want to feel loved, yet every time any one shows an ounce of interest in me, I push them away. I know this guy would be perfect for me. We get along so well, and we just understand each other. I’m going to a family party of his this weekend, so I’m hoping maybe I can recover what I said, but I’m also afraid that I’ll mess it up even more. I guess my question is— how can I fix this? How can I show love for others without pushing them away?