DAY 1 — THE THING NEVER SAID I am Abraham’s daughter. For most of my life, I carried a story that never belonged to me. Before I was old enough to understand what was happening, I was accused of being someone else’s child. My grandmother believed that I was her husband’s daughter and accused my mother of something that was not true. Because of that belief, my mother and I suffered years of emotional, verbal, and physical abuse. My biological father was incarcerated before I was born, and although he eventually made it known that I was his daughter, the damage had already been done. I grew up carrying accusations that were never mine to carry. The truth is: I am Abraham’s daughter. DAY 2 — NAME THE FEELING For years I called myself strong, but underneath that strength were feelings I never gave names to. The emotions I carried were: - Rejection - Confusion - Anger - Loneliness - Fear - Shame - Sadness - Abandonment - Resentment - Determination I spent so much of my life trying to prove that I was different, worthy, and deserving of love that I never stopped long enough to name what I actually felt. DAY 3 — THE UNSENT LETTER Dear Grandmother, You made me fight a battle that was never mine. I spent years trying to prove that I belonged. I spent years trying to prove that I was worthy. I spent years trying to outrun accusations that were placed on me before I even knew who I was. The little girl who wanted your love eventually learned that she could not earn it. I watched my mother suffer. I watched our relationship suffer. I watched you choose a story over the truth. Even when you found out the truth you told I wasn’t gonna never mount upto shit. And while I cannot change what happened, I can finally release the responsibility of carrying it. I forgive myself for believing that your rejection meant that I was unworthy. I release the burden that never belonged to me. DAY 4 — BEFORE IT HAPPENED Before the accusations. Before the rejection. Before the family wounds.