I had a good day today. I went to bed at the time I had planned to. Early in the day I enjoyed having company, did something for a friend, declutteted for 20 minutes and took time for myself. Did two short exercise videos and practiced my dance steps (taking a class because I never learned to dance). It feels good to be mindful of how I am using my time. Doing something for others but making sure I did what is part of my two rocks, more movement and better sleep.

Feeling good because I’m meeting my goal of going to bed a little earlier and remembering to exercise each day even if it’s only for 20 minutes. I’m grateful I joined this group. It’s making a difference. It’s helping me to give priority to my needs and feel I’m gaining self-respect. Thank you!

Just wrote my Commitment Letter for Week 1 and the pattern was hiding in plain sight. Music showed up in nearly every answer I gave, even when the question wasn't about music. For 14 years I've let everything else come first - the renovation, the TV work, the eight different hats on my website. Not anymore. My Big Rock: make tangible weekly progress on recording my album, with music on the FRONT burner. Done is better than perfect. Let's go.

"The cruel irony of ADHD: you need executive function to start doing the things that improve executive function." No truer words and man did they hit hard for me. BUT luckily in my journey I finally discovered how I had been sabotaging my efforts in the areas of exercise and nutrition by trying to go all in and hard and not giving myself a chance or permission to take it slow and ease into it. Sounds simple but the concept escaped me until recently. Over the last 8 months I have gone from believing I was incapable of continuing exercise that was boring but beneficial and crucial at my age to walking 2.5 mi 6 days a week most weeks. I still do NOT enjoy it and it doesn't make me "feel better" but my improved medical test results and the fear of becoming immobile later in life keep me motivated enough to continue the practice. What lights me up is no longer practical at this time in my life. So this is a decent alternative. I spent all the years since I became a Mom (almost 30 years ago) unable to fall asleep easily nor sleep through the night. I stopped drinking caffeine after 12 pm right around the same time as I felt a direct correlation back then. Until menopause hit I just lived with bad sleep, napped when I could and "caught up on weekends". Sleep health was my first priority once the hormones went crazy. My current supplement stack has been a lifesaver, though I still dont feel rested and recharged, I also dont feel exhausted and out of control. Which for now is good enough. My next priority became nutrition, specifically increased water and protein intake. The water was pretty easy and made the most difference in how I actually felt as far as a direct correlation to feeling better the more water I drank and knowing it would help when I felt bad. The increased protein was harder than I thought it would be and I almost gave up but source after source kept showing me the benefits and since my sleep, exercise and hydration were on course but I still didnt feel good, I figured I had to push through. I now prioritize protein at every meal. I still struggle to get in my 90 g each day (mainly because I have never been a "good eater". I have food sensory issues and a low appetite. And when I dont eat intentionally it's still super easy for me to completely skip meals). Now I get between 70 g and 80 g most days which is much more than I was getting before I became intentional about it. So again, good enough for now.

Never mind "don't miss 2 days in a row", I had to miss a whole week. So now I've settled down and am starting to catch up on that week. I am trying not to panic about this because it seems I have already broken an unbreakable rule for this program. What is more, it will happen again - such is the life that I lead! So, dear tribe, please check in on me. I don't want to do this on my own. I am so invested in Jim's program. The state I am in... probably on the edge of burn out. Something big has to change and I have gambled that this program is it.