So since joining I've come to notice some patterns that need to break in the way that I show up at work I've noticed that the same pattern from childhood that hyper vigilance and fear around getting it wrong pops up and I can't help but think and overthink and meaning make and try to make sense of it all. Part of me feels that my attachment to my business partner and best friend is really a trauma bond and like my heart isn't in the Business anymore...however there is this fear of hurting her which is a fear of disappointing her which I know is not mine to control but it's still very difficult. Part of me wants to let go and completely sever ties and then part of me wants to remain loyal and stay the course. Here's the conflicting part she's been absolutely monumental to my growth and assisted me with getting myself out there again, making connections,and facing fears. And I feel like that's where she's at right now and I know my support is valuable but it feels like it's not enough...I don't know it feels like it's time to end it but there's something holding me back from doing so

I find myself incredibly sexually attracted to men and completely repulsed by the vagina. Conversely I find myself drawn to strong women and repulsed by men when it comes to other qualities that have to do with the ego or personality. I am very sexually confused...it's eluded me all my life. I've been taking the tantric path to try and pinpoint when and at what point I get aroused. What should I do so that my desires don't overtake me...or take me down a dark road?

What are dreams, to you? Are they just stories your mind creates for entertainment? Do they contain symbols and messages from your higher mind? The spirit realm? Are they actual alternative realities that exist somewhere in the “alternatives space”? Are you astral traveling? I would love for you guys to discuss what you think is happening when we dream. Reason for posting is I just woke up from a sort of terrifying dream that felt like an alternate reality. I felt like I was awake but some things weren’t quite normal. For example; I looked at my phone in the dream and the Snapchat icon was green & white, not yellow & white, so I knew at that moment that I wasn’t in my primary reality. 95% of the time my dreams are not like this, so it’s really affected me and got me wondering.

Question for my friends here! What is your favorite movie, or documentary?? It’s Ok to have several favorites….because I do! I’ll go first…. 1. Interstellar 2. Excalibur (1981) 3. The Matrix….all of them 4. Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter and Spring 5. Kingdom of Heaven 6. Twilight Samurai 7. What the Bleep do We Know 8. So many more….but these are likely my top! Not necessarily in that order!💕

How to tell the difference between these two? I just watched a reel of guy saying intution is talking to you in statements wheter anxiety in questions. But I am not fully convinced somehow 😂