Today is Powerful! Embrace This Pivotal Portal
I must have fell asleep trying to post this video last night 😂 😆 Today marks the final countdown to embracing transformation! Whether you're ready or not, take a leap of faith and own this new chapter. Your authenticity is your superpower - don't let anyone dull your sparkle! Embrace the uncertainty, and remember that growth often feels uncomfortable. You've made it this far, and that's something to be proud of! Keep pushing boundaries, and never lose faith in yourself. You got this! I watched this cool anime movie about pop group who fought off demons with their beautiful voices and positive lyrics with my little God daughter yesterday & In this weird way, it resonated with my own story about losing my own voice for 3 years a week before my first tour with one of my biggest mentors, “Sarah Smith” from London, Ontario. That’s another beautiful story for another day, but after losing my brother to suicide 18 years ago, I never thought I’d sing without him again and Sarah was the person who inspired me all over again, just when I thought I’d never look back. Moving forward, My mom took me to a specialist in Toronto after losing my voice and I remember praying all the way there for God not to take the one thing that brought me the most happiness and purpose in life. My mom even gave me the third degree on listening to him if he tells me I can’t sing, only because she was worried too…. When I got there, he starts speaking my language in chakras & root causes and says, “ Kristen, it’s not your singing voice that is the problem, it’s your talking voice. You’re not speaking your truth!” That appointment hit me hard because I have been a people pleaser most of my life and always choosing “most” of the wrong relationships & thinking I can fix everyone. The funny thing is that I am actually usually always friends with all my exes after we break up because I truly want to see them happy too. This last year really awakened me to a cycle I wasn’t about to start all over again with someone who was very unhealed and not alinged with my truth and ever since letting him go, I’ve been in a relationship with myself. It’s been one of the most difficult years yet, but I’m grateful for that mean man for being my catalyst & reminding me of my worth and finally having the courage to break a hard 22 year cycle for once and for all. Also for finally having the resilience and strength to clear generational traumas moving forward. To this day, I still pray for even those who are evil in my life because I believe that one day they will look back and one day see my worth and maybe, just maybe I helped changed them into a better person as some have for me too. I’m also grateful to myself and all the healing I’ve done within, which of course I don’t expect anyone to understand. No one knows what we feel inside or what we have been through, or how that we have carried that within us. But it’s also no one else’s responsibility to do that inner shadow work within ourselves and understand our triggers and rise up to become the best versions of ourselves everyday, and hey! That doesn’t mean we have to show up and be perfect either, just authentic and real.