I started gambling about 18 years ago. Firstly I did not think about winning, it was my time period relaxing. Then it all changed, I wanted to win money, that's when it spiral. I stole, my marriage was in crisis, there was point broken promises, relapses continued but I didn't change. Until yesterday I thought to myself, you have to change your mindset on what's realistic and granteed, what worse timing when all lenders rejected me to borrow to consolidate all my debts. Anyway tomorrow is another day. I will sort out my life and move on. I have not gamble for 2days and hopping I will continue. Recovery and healing is my mindset now. I will continue tomorrow.