Last week I had a dyad session with Chapin and he mentioned that he has an uncle that had a giant breakthrough years ago, related to wondering why he suffered. After that, and apparently much work, Chapin tells me he basically doesn't suffer. (Here I'm talking about the kind of suffering we're working on in the group on Sundays, and what Peter is talking about in the book. You know, the kind that is created only in your mind. I'll just call it suffering.) I wondered what it must be like for Chapin's uncle. Then I wondered what it might be like for me if I didn't suffer anymore. After a bit of contemplation, I suddenly realized it is actually possible! (To not suffer anymore.) I then asked, why not give it a try for real? So I did. And it led to a dramatic and easily noticeable decrease in my suffering! Weird isn't it? All I had to do is realize it's possible and this alone made a dramatic difference in my efforts. Of course it helps to also know where the place is. But I already knew that. It was the creation of a new possibility that made the difference for me.

I noticed in the ACW that I don't work on getting absolute Now very often. So I've been working on it. This morning I was doing my regular "whole body workout". Part of it is light tapping around the eyes, it's my own version of the EFT technique (a psychology "trick" used for freedom from emotional baggage). There's this part where I tap on my eyebrows and repeat "I'm here for you. I'm always right here. Right now. Forever and ever and ever...". I was doing that when I realized forever and ever is just an idea. And then I suddenly and easily got Now. I noticed I had stopped worrying about time. Everything is Now. That was the experience. Very pleasant! The thing I want to say about this one is it should be easy, once you get past the ideas about time. Indeed like they say just start by noticing it's always now. For me that makes it more accessible. Maybe for y'all as well.

Imagine you have a fish bowl and some very special marbles that shrink in size when pressure is applied. Now imagine stuffing these marbles into the fish bowl. The bowl starts to fill up. The marbles start to shrink because of the pressure. Keep stuffing more marbles. Notice they keep shrinking smaller and smaller and still fit into the fish bowl. Now stuff an infinite number of these marbles into the bowl. What happens? Notice that even though it's "impossible" to do that, you can still use your imagination. Use it. What do you imagine? Now get past your imagination. What is the true nature of infinity?

I just finished the ACW and wanted to post on my "big breakthrough" on the nature of infinity. Here's my recollection of what happened. I was contemplating. I was trying to picture an infinite number of objects. I knew this was a dead end but my mind persisted for a while. Then a shift occurred. I realized that the "little objects" were being held as representation of distinction itself. I experienced removing the limitation of distinction. There was a letting go. And then suddenly I got it. Now I know things I didn’t know before. My first date with infinity didn’t go very well (in school). I’ve kind of become buddies with infinity after a slow start haha!

I sincerely hope this "poem" helps... Note to self: If the truth is that nothing is true, it could become a problem for my mind which has a drive to know. I could go insane trying to hold what can't be held. Don't do that!