The first thing that came to me when I read this was wondering if you were taught that emotions are "bad" or if they were "too much" for others. I used to ask my kids (and myself) to assess how long the emotion will take. I would say when they were small, "is this a three hour problem or a three day problem" We would all self assess and know we were "allowed " to feel sorry for ourselves for the time we chose. 2 out of 3 of us have 39-55- not that I knew it at the time. When I'm really in a low, I inform all the people who come near me that my mood has nothing to do with them so please don't take it personally. Reading that you get bursts of energy from your kids, are you non sacral? As a non sacral myself, I totally get this borrowed energy comment! I understand melancholy- 10 gates !- and what I have come to realise is that Melancholy wants to create. Creating ANYTHING, a cake, a poem, colouring your kids' book helps accept the melancholy for what it is, rather than try to escape it. It's also useful to name it. "Oh, nothing is actually WRONG, I'm just feeling melancholic ... I is what it is. And the last thing I'll say ( for now- 🤪) is that I'm finally asking myself if I'm actually hungry or if I am eating my feelings. 39-55 is a BITCH for this! HAPPY HOLIDAYS