One of My Spiritual Experiences: --When I was extremely sick, I saw this: white horses were running into the grassy field and dirt, and one of my crushes was there. He was riding on one, maybe the only one besides me if I can remember right, except I had one too in a later vision. I didn't know what it was, but God said something like this in my head: "This is the final battle." There were multiple people on white horses chasing maybe one black horse and I could tell he was going to lose because we had more people and we had faith. I had a bad feeling about the black horse though, because he would stop at NOTHING to get power. He was just too determined and was more like a Nazi than us. We had swords; they were silver glinting in the sun. We were in the light; he was in the darkness because he had to hide. I felt kind of a small hope at a lot of the spiritual experiences I had; it was tragic because something huge was ending, but I was hopeful of something better to come. It made me cry and it was like almost seeming insignificant, but at the same time it was like God cared about it more than me, more than us. He also cared because even though there was a lot of evil, it was like He was there and it was all going to be OK forever. It was like this might be good if it's ending forever a little because there is no more pain or evil. A lot of bad stuff would happen like natural disasters and people would die, also there were wars and famine. It was sad, but not all the way sad because there was hope and most people would live forever in a happier place; I could tell just by the feeling; it was like God was communicating with me; the feeling gave me a sense of peace. From the Bible: --I think this can be related to the Battle of Armageddon. All saints are supposed to fight and angels from heaven I think with Jesus at the end. Saints are followers of God. Another Related Spiritual Experience: --I even heard God say something about it like: "Wait until the clock is at 12. It's at 10 for you almost" I can't remember, but I think he said something like "your sin is almost up to." Like maybe everyone's? This is because it is almost the end of the world.

God said that I am worth a diamond off of his motif to Him and that is why I must die. It was a red one he put it on me, (it kind of cut me), he said "I keep telling you that I don't want you to die because I really don't, but you have to." It was tiny and red and sparkly. It looked like some sort of a sparkle off a shirt, but it felt like an honor and like I was seen even though I was bleeding.

God showed me this: A traditional clock with hands, and so you can't see where the pointing fingers are intersecting, you see an arrow, like from a bow and arrow go right through the middle. He said: "This is what they're trying to do. They are trying to make sure you can't see what time it is." I felt him judge me a little too for mumbling under my breath. And He just thought to me, it felt like: "I know you think you can never be forgiven. But you need to think for yourself like you always think you want to about this hurting people and you."