God said that I am worth a diamond off of his motif to Him and that is why I must die. It was a red one he put it on me, (it kind of cut me), he said "I keep telling you that I don't want you to die because I really don't, but you have to." It was tiny and red and sparkly. It looked like some sort of a sparkle off a shirt, but it felt like an honor and like I was seen even though I was bleeding.