This is a rather intense phase of practice... It's not like I can go anywhere... It's not like I want to go anywhere... It's like I want to go somewhere... It's like I want those around me to have more freedom... It's like I would like to have experiences in life that I have not necessarily had, yet... AND I MUST BE CALM AND PATIENT FOR AT LEAST A YEAR!!! I am so frickin' grateful for what is occurring within me and without for the benefit of all beings. Grateful for the amazing presence of the men and women that are supportive of this experience.... Thank you... GN <---- lol 😑

I’ve been on a journey with my Christian walk — one that has deepened over time. My relationship with Jesus continues to grow, but my understanding of God has also expanded. I’ve come to see that seeking God is an active thing — a verb — not just something I believe in. I experience God as Presence, as Love, as something that lives and moves through me. I still see myself as a Christian, but I also resonate with the more mystical side of the path. I feel close to Mary Magdalene and the wisdom found in her gospel — she reminds me that love, grace, and direct experience with the Divine are part of the journey too. I’m learning to walk the middle road — between the Christ within and the Christ I was taught about, between mystery and faith, between knowing and not knowing. I am not a traditional Christian believing in hell as described in the Bible. I know God is found within. I also don’t believe in the enemy as described in the Bible. I don’t believe a lot in what Paul wrote. The list goes on. It’s all metaphorical and not to be taken word for word

I had this reoccurring dream when I was a child my mother and my dad and myself down on Honey Creek Davis Oklahoma. And I'm probably around a year old 1981 I have the styrofoam floaty with a rainbow seat And my mom is floating me downstream just a short piece "maybe 8 to 10 feet"to Dad six or seven times a fairly short distance I'm having a blast they're having a blast Then dad moves downstream seems like 15-20 yards And about that time my mom kind of shoves me off as if she's going to give me a little more speed and I topple over and as soon as my body goes under that frigid water my whole body goes stiff legs are crossed so now I'm hanging upside down in my floatie freezing cold and then the pain........ Next thing I know I'm floating up in the trees with my older self very familiar no words just interderstanding And it was like I knew everything and I can't quite put it into words or quite put my finger on it The third time I had this dream I told my mom I've been having a reoccurring dream I'm probably nine years old and the look on her face more than discussed why are you lying who told you that to my reply well if I'm lying then who would have told me that why are you mad I'll never forget that face she made she was pissed so she won't like the store getting out too much

I have these dreams Of us coming together by the masses It's it's in nature trees every where With these white barracks like structures it feels like summer camp