To help stay disciplined and accountable. I decided to recently start vlogging, with the goal of releasing one episode every 6-10 days and playing only once a week during peak hours on either Friday or Saturdays. Spending more time editing and reviewing hands on a daily basis, and less time at the tables I think will help keep me to stay busy instead of falling into old habits. I’m up in poker for the year, but blew my bankroll on sports betting and chasing losses on sports that I don’t even watch, like tennis! I didn’t touch my bankroll for the entire 2026 year until mid March and was able to play consistently at 1/3 buying in for the max ($500). This has been a recurring theme, and I vowed 2026 would be different and started off so strong with BRM. I just banned myself from all of the apps for whatever their cool off period is (some 4 weeks, and some 1 year). I’m hoping substituting with vlogging will help me stay accountable, plug my leaks and keep me away from habits that are drowning me. I edited my first vlog and can already see improvement in my thought process. Even though I was running bad AND playing bad. My first day filming at the tables was kind of nerve wracking and wasn’t sure if it was the right decision. I’m starting to feel a bit more comfortable now and am hoping to keep progressing. Let’s continue to progress in Breaking the Cycle 🤞

My challenge was that I won't play poker for a month, and im still holding, focusing on work and physical activities. Feels suck sometime and time been passing slow but gotta commit to the process. Also been facing my own mistakes from the past and been paying for them now, so yes sometimes I bitch around and complain, but a professional poker player TAKE RESPONSIBILITY And by this phase of my poker career I have to learn about responsibilities more than the game itself.

I’m gonna be real for a second. I’ve literally tilted to the point of tears. Because it feels like my hands just don’t hold when they’re supposed to. I pick the right spots… and still lose. Again. And again. And again. And the worst part? It feels like I’m sabotaging myself. Like something inside me doesn’t let me win when it actually matters. What’s crazy is this: when I was worse, when I didn’t study, when I played more instinctively… I was winning more. Now I understand the game deeply. I see everything clearer. And yet… results don’t match. How is that even possible? So I’m asking this honestly, to anyone who’s been through it: How do you actually break through this phase? How do you stop this feeling that no matter how well you play… something always goes wrong at the key moment? Because right now it doesn’t feel like variance. It feels like I’m stuck. And I want out.

This is day 3… no update yesterday. Been busy the past couple days at work. Feeling good still, but the first few days are never super challenging. Have been working on my mental state and trying to see the end goal. With it only being day 3, the light at the end of the tunnel is shining bright, but still far away. No shortcuts. Constant reminder I’m trying to give myself. Upcoming weekends will be the hardest times. As far as goals go… I’ve been trying to come up with some. Have some pretty big expenses coming up to pay and not sure exactly how much they will end up being, but I will figure it out and post some more accurate goals. One of my goals if everything plays out how I am thinking is to obviously stay disciplined, and fly out for Wsop, play the mini main and maybe one other event with a 5k bankroll to fire at tournaments. However… if I am not feeling comfortable and trusting in myself being around the pits, I just won’t go. If it doesn’t happen, so be it. I’m not in a rush to get back to the poker table… I’m in a rush to establish discipline in my life and poker will still be there after I do that. Another goal is to have a 40k bankroll by the end of the year and start playing 5/10 again and build back from there. Very reasonable and realistic goal(s) for myself short term and long term. Will continue to update. Hope everyone is doing well.

Hi my name is Paulo I'm from Portugal and I'm currently 35yo I start playing poker around 23 years ago I study poker all my life , I live and breath it ! I've meet many professional poker players and I know I'm better than them cause they were the ones telling me that but I never had the discipline , money and focus to commit in the levels that I deserve. I've been in some professional poker teams and all of them I made profit on a 50% 50% cut but I just never took it serious and end up leaving the teams and spending money on bullshit ( casinos( slot machines ) , nights with friends ... at this moment I'm currently kinda depressed and jobless for 2 years and I would like to change my life and once for all take poker serious this is why I have joined this group to once for all focus in my poker habilitys.