There is a war that happens the moment you start seeking truth, and it is not random. Your conscious mind picks up a book. But your unconscious has been asleep for years, maybe decades, running programs you never chose, beliefs you inherited, fears you never questioned. The moment real knowledge enters through your eyes, the unconscious panics. It sends everything it has at you. Internal resistance, external chaos, people turning on you, circumstances collapsing. Jung called this the conflict between the conscious and unconscious self. The unconscious will fight to stay in control, because the moment you become aware of it, its power over you starts dying. But it goes deeper than psychology. The moment you start pulling back the veil, you are threatening a system that has kept souls bound for generations. That system does not just sit quietly while you dismantle it. It mobilizes. Through people, through circumstances, through your own mind turning against you. What feels like the world crushing you is actually the world revealing itself, showing you exactly what it is made of, showing you exactly what has always been operating beneath the surface. I and many others have experienced the exact same thing you are talking about. I feel like the negative forces in this world try to attack people harder who are doing the work to grow spiritually

@Stephanie Looby That is beautiful, and you should trust that calling. Sometimes the soul outgrows what once felt right, not because it was wrong, but because it prepared you for what is next. Cooking with love is still a gift, and that energy touches people deeply. But when something greater keeps pulling at your heart, it is there for a reason. Honor the gifts passed down through your bloodline, and trust where they are leading you. Your mother and grandmother planted seeds in you, now it is your time to let them bloom.

Everyone’s awakening process is very unique to them. Awakening, to me, is the process of becoming conscious of what you were once unconscious of. It is when you start questioning everything you once accepted as absolute truth, your beliefs, your habits, your fears, your identity, and even the way you perceive reality itself. Most people live through layers of conditioning, family programming, societal expectations, trauma, and unconscious patterns, and they mistake those layers for who they truly are. Awakening is when those layers begin to crack, and you start seeing that much of what has been running your life was never really you. It is not about becoming something new, it is about remembering what has always been there beneath the noise, the ego, and the mind. It is the shift from living on autopilot to living consciously. A lot of people think awakening is all light, peace, and bliss, but often it starts with chaos. It can feel like losing yourself, because the old version of you begins to die. Your attachments change, your relationships may shift, and the things that once mattered can start to feel empty. This is why awakening can feel isolating at first. But the deeper purpose of awakening is truth. To know yourself beyond labels, beyond fear, beyond illusion, and to reconnect with the deeper intelligence within you. It is the beginning of real inner freedom, because once you see clearly, you cannot go back to sleep.