Whenever I try to Read some books that contain esoteric knowledge or some woo woo secrets. I find myself being heavily targeted by spirits and external world. To a point the world is against me and trying to crush me down only after reading certain books that contain secrets. This has happened when I read occult sciences, hermetic principles and etc. it was not even a placebo effect or belief manifesting. It was more than that. I want to know why this is happening?

Joey do you think while being in an blissful state or feeling extreme love /joy or high vibrations during manifesting something specific. Does it speed up our manifestation as we are in elevated emotions? What are the signs that confirms our manifestation is on the way and we are in right path?

You can only have what you already have. If you don't have it, then you can never have it.