So grateful of your post @Eileen Bennett and yes I can relate so much. LOL i do often feel maybe it is a eldest daughter or maybe it's a Capricorn trait😅😂which i think we share. As of course I have found myself in similar place many times . I could have written this especially about 6 months ago thankfully i listened (to be real i didn't until i really had too) what my body was saying and began to pull the brakes back then in order to figure out where was 'I' in all of my doing . I have to say that all of my more recent studies in EAS and toolbox of resources both here and others gave me a whole new approach and support to essentially a physical burnout . So I simply gave myself permission to PAUSE and start from where i was at. A bit of a alien term in my multitasking world . But i had to ! I'd pushed past limits so had no other choice as the body just said no . That's enough and so i had to embrace the dreaded PAUSING 😅 Something someone said to me last year kept ringing in my ear... Don't be a BUSY FOOL...!!! So i said to hell . I need to reset and for once pull up my socks and simply find my own feet first. It's hard not to get caught up in the doing and going again whenever energy returns As it's so familiar. Yet whenever i keep finding myself in the shift of old modes stepped back even just a tad to my norm. I kept reminding myself to get myself out to the horses as they will be so blunt and on point to show me where i am at . I have found that I can see the changes so clearly in them and so it is a reflection in how far i have come and the main goal to really growing out of this cycle which i am embracing. It is possible to look after yourself and others without crashing. Alongside the horses allowed me to reflect on ; What was mine and not mine. What i wanted to be part of an not part of. What is serving me well and not so well . Instead of racing to achieve new goals I have simply allowing all the learning and unlearning to be absorbed .

@Eileen Bennett https://youtu.be/VgZ2oJu8-lM

@Eileen Bennett https://open.spotify.com/track/7cDJZvKCU9VWigsP3oK5bN?si=LPBmiF-bSCyDCJnb8wszjA This is another that keeps funnily finding my ears too recently. I am so bad to remember songs names or artists so I had to look them up.

Oh Eileen, i love the way you use language I had to look up Inertia ( banking that word now )🤩 Oh i feel i could write a book in being in this place of body slowing me right down and yet having that ever so growing list of to do or projects . so i definetly can relate. I felt i would be able to swing into in the new year but ended up I just wasn't quite up to it. This period of more slower pace ( or underproductivity in my mind ) at the beginning it was ever so very frustrating and i tired to push through as i do but i kept finding myself back in the having to accept this PAUSE. Then a big shift happened recently that I feel that my deeper self must have known it had needed to slow the body right down in order for me to appreciate and be present in what was to unfold. I had this strange gut instinct there was something to happen niggling me and so when it did happen it all made sense. So for me when i got past the WHY ? ( the frustrating part ) I found myself in place of acknowledgment and much more Clarity in it is okay to Pause at times and possibly actually is very necessary in order to be truly creative or learn. It just seems like how did i not see it all the time. I do feel our bodies really do hold score of past experiences and a deeper intuition kicks in whenever we are maybe walking a little too far from our center (whatever resonates to the reader your internal, light ,divine self ,soul, being ...) that element of ourselves pulls back the body on its weak spots. This can be very triggering as when we find yourselves back in an old wound or simple a place of pause we hadn't allowed for . It might feel like we are revisiting something that we don't like or is something we felt we had moved on from. A little like old habits die hard or what is it i need to learn now (teenage self ) Can i not just get on with it !! That why me ?? Why now ? Is the WHY just part of the cycle of knowing and learning ? But I hope this makes sense to someone . My odd old soul found recently that whenever we get to revisit something we once thought had released and moved on from . We find ourselves looking at it from a completed different angle as if we are looking in at the scenario which for me then feels like the learning and unlearning cycle completes itself.

yes lastnight was beautiful and pics/video couldn’t capture it it was so beautifully bright and radiating ✨🌕

@Stacey Youlios It’s radiating and came out exactly as it should . Beautiful hues 🌕✨

Rain came back again here 🌧️🤦🏻‍♀️🤞not for too long more I’ve add to this little rant … It really is so wasteful of all places in the world . how we don’t have the best water system and quality in the world is a bit mind boggling. especially with all the rain we experienced in comparison to other places in the world …. as well we most have so many highly educated graduates every year being educated that could help come up with real life solutions for every household & farm , business on ways to improve our country’s water systems… Instead (the so called ones that make the decisions ) don’t use the educated minds to come up with solutions . They decide a good idea would be to spend billions on a pipeline from Loughderg to Dublin for water that will need to be highly treated ( as even as a child I wouldn’t have drank from it )and it will most likely become more problematic as time goes on as there will be less water in the river/lake with abstraction for lough derg ( causing environmental destruction) but oh well but they won’t fix the leaks in Dublin first place 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️