Hi All, I'm new here and wanted to say HI! Mary kept popping up in my feeds and I was a bit "bumfuzzled" at first, then I started getting intrigued and drawn in. Of course it's a rabbit hole at first, till you find your path. My spiritual life started out from a young age as Pentecostal Evangelical - and the pastor's daughter to boot. As a vocalist I sang "The Alabaster Box" many times and it was just in every cell of my being and I didn't know why - because MM was a woman of ill repute (yep it's still being taught in the churches). Still drawn to her story though. To who was she - really? I left "the" church about 15 years ago and haven't looked back. I've read Meggan Watterson's "Mary Magdalene REVEALED" twice and cant wait to read it again. I get something new each time. I also have the book of all the Gnostic Gospels - and honestly, I'm finding them hard to read cause they still read like a KJV bible. I've been noting the characteristics of Mary and have decided those are what I wish to emulate. I am a massage therapist by training. Its my segway to impart the gift of healing and foreseer that has been passed down through the generations. Through this gift, I have learned to trust the inner voice and act. It's taken me a while to learn the difference between what I'm feeling is mine or someone else. But I've learned grounding and self protection and that has made all the diffence in the world. Thanks for reading my short essay! LOL -- I'm a September VIRGO - so bear with me! LOL

Things are breaking loose in my body. The pain I’ve been carrying for years, tension, spasms, there’s a deep release happening. I have fibromyalgia and even wearing clothes hurts often, I have full body numbness, tingling, and spasms. I’ve lived with squeezing rib pain that goes back years and had ER visits for spasms in my chest the were so bad I thought I was having a heart attack. I couldn’t wear a bra for five years (not that I want to, but they’re occasionally nice for my big ol grandma knockers, especially for sweat catching purposes) until very recently and they have to be very soft bralette type things even now. But something is changing. I’m having more good-ish days. I can feel things loosening, even my jaw and shoulders are more relaxed instead of bracing from pain or for life’s impacts. I’m even feeling my throat relaxing and that is the hardest one to explain, but the muscles aren’t squeezing as tightly. It’s like there’s an unbinding happening in me physically. Woman, though art loosed. For real. And, I’m suddenly able to drop deeply into my heart space in a new and profound way when I’m meditating. I am seeing a glowing and pulsing portal in the center of me that my mind takes me to over and over, and the coolest part (there are no coincides) is that it looks like the art I’ve been creating for literal years- Virgin Mary/portal/vagina/divine feminine symbols. I’ve collected them, painted them, drawn them, and create embroidery art of them. I thought I’d been staring at too much of my embroidery work lately when it first started happening. But now I’m certain I’ve been leading myself here. For years and years my Knowing, my subconscious, Source, all the Mary’s were guiding me to this place. This place inside me that is connecting me to the divine and to my own divinity for what feels like my soul’s homecoming. And, to have found it at this exact moment and crossroads, when my healing heart needs it most, I am in all sorts of WHOA. There’s a glittery disco ball portal of light in my heart space and I want to live there full time. Or go through it to see what’s on the other side. Maybe this is what rebirth feels like. Go. Toward. The. Light. 🌹