My biggest breakthrough from today’s breathwork was shifting completely from my mind into my body. I experienced a deep sense of peace, calm, and trust, feeling completely whole and infinite love. I truly felt at home within myself and rooted in my own frame. The emotions that came up for me were grief and sadness. I felt grief regarding people who let go of me or whom I had to let go, even though I would have loved to still have them in my life. I also strongly felt the emotion of ‘not being chosen’. My biggest breakthrough was releasing this pain, realizing that this deep wound actually stems from my father and mother, and is not truly mine. By breathing through it, it brought me back to a comforting feeling of deep inner peace. At the end of the session, I felt a strong, positive, light, and joyful sensation of peace and trust, knowing that everything is good.

I’ve just completed the breathwork session with Victor and Patty. It was very impressive. During the session, my body started to tingle. I’m familiar with this tingling sensation from Aaron’s guided meditations, but not to this extent. My entire upper body, from my face down to my navel, tingled with an intensity I’d never experienced before. It was as if excess energy was flowing out of me. The intensity increased during the second breathing round and gradually subsided during the third. I felt fear and cried a little. I’m afraid of getting what I want. As a result, I’m holding myself back from achieving or getting what I want. The universe told me that I am safe, that I can trust, and that I will receive everything I want. My greatest realisation is to have trust – in myself, in the process and in life. And to feel this trust every day, especially on the challenging / heavy days.

My insights from day 4 homework: The dynamic between Mom and Dad was loving, yet emotionally distant. I was the mediator between the two of them, so I always had to take one side or the other. My own needs often took a back seat. At the same time, I was expected to support my parents in emergencies. On top of that, my parents had high expectations of me and made that very clear. This left me feeling like I had to please everyone and that I was never good enough. So I am a performer / quiet one / peacemaker type.

I heard about reframing a while ago but I didn't try it. It is interesting how the smallest situation can affect your beliefs and how you behave in reality. And that you can find something good in every situation, even when it's hard to see or believe.

Sharing my beliefs about love, relationships, men/women and dating. Also did a part of the 'Core Belief Meditation' to get a clearer focus, but most of the beliefs that came up, I am aware of. However, the exercise was very helpful.