Something about the NIGHT ….! Dreams, nightmares, sleep, anything to do with the night, Old or new, let’s see it ✨ Night Terrors It’s you I call to in my dreams, To pull me out from the fear I’ve seen. The ones that hold me in captured fright, When slow motion kicks in, And my screams are no more than wheezing murmurs, When my thoughts are running faster, But my motions slow to a crawl, Drawing out the torture of the moment, But this time you don’t hear my strangled call for help, Maybe my will isn’t strong enough to transcend, From this dream state this time, God help me if I have to see out this nightmare, I focus and force my broken earthy plight across the dream dimension, Desperate to reach the woken world, But still you don’t save me, The nightmare encroaches, The panic builds within me, I choke, There’s no sound from me, Which means you won’t know to wake me, The impending realisation hits me like final last words, My frightened whisper rasps and splutters, I hear an old line in my head - If you die in a dream then you die in real life... My panic turns to savage rage and I scream, I scream in defiance for I won’t be broken here, I scream in the face of all my fears, I scream so strong and loud, That I tear a rip in the fabric separating my dream and reality, It doesn’t slow my impending fate, It ebbs closer still and I feel the acrid warmth wash over my face, Just as I release my last defiant scream, You reach for me, Like an anchor reaching through the depths, Pulling me back, Shaking me awake from behind, Everything fades as you pull me out of my slumbered suicide, You heard me through the hole I made, I open my eyes to the safety of familiarity, Back in my bed, In the safety of my room, My eyes wide scanning for threats, I’m next to you, My night saviour, But then, As familiar reality surrounds me, I can still feel my dream, For a second, Just a moment, My fear has followed me into my reality, Through the tear I made to save myself, Both worlds momentarily co existing,

Was it me who said it’s unreal; hard for me to feel, afraid to chill, because your mouth can’t conceal, you’re too quick to reveal the unreal? Just a thought I’m already caught up; too damn far into this denial fuck naive like a child, with my one tracked mind thinking, but I stare so hard to keep from blinking. My heart is sinking further honestly discovering I only want one lover The unfailing Love effectiveness brings such an unaccomplished bliss Would it be so stupid, to diss the touch, or hold, is it crazy of me to be bold, as to tell a lie just to get by? You’ve been my comfort , a friend in some ways healed this crazy heart of years of trauma tearing me apart! The unfailing you’re almost unreal.

I don't have much to show for all the years that I've been here but I have you and that's enough I know I've changed and life just hasn't been the same but for what it's worth I wouldn't change anything Because you're still here after all these years I would have left me a long time ago you're still here after all these years You're my favorite person I just wanted you to know Im on the couch Your doing yoga in the front room You always know when I'm not feeling good When your done you kiss my cheek and say I love you I hope tomorrow is a better day Your still here After all these years I would have left me A long time ago Your still here After all these years Your my favorite person I just wanted you to know

This is a poem that my grandfather wrote. I recorded it over 20 years ago it's a family heirloom.. I love my children, I love my wife I've loved each day of my mortal life I've flown airplanes in the Azure Sky Sailed ships on the mighty Seas Ridden trains from coast to coast seeing cities the mountains and trees I've ridden the sky in a hot air balloon went beneath the sea in a submarine I've seen sunrises sunsets and gazed at the stars there's not much my eyes haven't seen I went to war in '44 the Navy was my pick they said I could see the world but didn't tell me I'd be so sick I worked at a factory worked on a farm Been beneath the earth in an old coal mine I drove a taxi built Burial Vaults despite all this I felt fine As I live out my days on Earth one never knows when it will end I measured my wealth not in dollars or cents but in the smile of one of my friends I have a wonderful wife and family grandchildren and great-grandchildren I proudly adore Been blessed with faith and a sense of humor who could ask for anything more So when this life is over and I am finally laid to rest place these six words upon a stone I TRIED TO DO MY BEST Merwin Perry Baker https://youtu.be/6mnZ3k_0np4?si=0tSqof7glM0eT4-c

Hello here's a link to this song I'm trying to move forward but I'm digging a hole Is it a grave honey I don't know I never expected it to be so strong Ive lost the battle And I want to go home I'm scared to tell you I'm so afraid And if these thoughts won't go away Then the hole becomes the grave I don't feel like dying today But if this is living Then fuck this shit Sometimes I look to the sky And I can see the stars But I still can't see the light I'm scared to tell you I'm so afraid And if these thoughts won't go away Then the hole becomes a grave And I know it's not the right thing to do But it feels so right I don't feel like leaving today But sometime I just might https://youtube.com/watch?v=LM-gkxv6bTk&si=OE0nz3zrIXZQIaI9