Hope, mostly. To meet interesting people, make connections. Sadly, hope is a lie and an excuse to allow us the delusion that it's ok to do less than the minimum standard to better ourselves. Being in multiple communities let's me dupe myself into thinking I am doing a lot of work in myself. Because, there are a lot of opportunities to do that work. Opportunities translate into noise as descion fatigue sets in, and I find myself and doing less overall, than I would if I had stuck to one thing. I compensated by turning off Skool notifications, and I am only paying attention to one or two groups where I am trying to get used to the idea of engaging. I am thinking about going though a purge. Seeing that list of Skools I don't engage in gives me a bit of anxiety, and guilt knowing I made a commitment to myself. Getting rid of the physical reminders of unnecessary obligations that never mattered should help me refocus on the places I do want to have a presence in.