I’ve never talked about this publicly but 3 years ago I made a decision to take my own life. I had made up my mind. I had the gun loaded and ready to go and had fooled myself that I was doing everyone a favor. I remember pulling into the parking lot of my gym and taking it all in for the last time before I locked myself in my office. My life was falling apart and it felt like the only option that made sense. I closed my eyes and prayed “God if you are real, and I have a purpose on this planet show me now.” I opened my eyes to my mom and son pulling in the parking lot to check on me and say hi. (my mom had only been to my gym once to this point) my sons eyes lit up when he saw me and gave me a big hug. I knew right then that was my sign…. So I started working on myself immediately. I stopped posting on social media and decided my entire focus needed to be working myself out of the hole I had dug for myself. These there the steps I took that pulled me out. I hope that they can help some of you. 1. (most importantly)Reconnect with God. Finding my connection to the most high and spending time with him everyday in prayer, along with breath work and meditation. 2. rediscovering my “why” and focusing my attention to the things that bring me closer to that 3 focusing my attention to my wife/children/ and relationships that truly matter. 4. giving- of my time finances and effort to others 5 focused control of my thoughts and words to be on things that are positive and bring glory to God. Not just myself. 6 exercising/training (and every step honestly) especially on the days I don’t feel like it. Taking control of my mental state on the days I don’t feel like it keep me from slipping into old habits. It’s honestly super simple. But probably the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I hope this helps someone in the group!