@Frederik Schaaf I feel like I'm doing what I need to do, but it's not getting me anywhere and it's hard to justify continuing when I'm regularly ignored and ghosted. I've had interactions where I've had a good conversation, make plans to meet, and then I am ignored and/or i never get confirmation of the plan. When i show up to meet someone i make plans with, I'm mostly stood up. Of the ones that are successful meets, they have never gone anywhere (which is fine. I don't expect to be everyone's friend). I send an occasional text to check-in and very rarely get any response, and I'm not going to spend weeks and/or months showing up when there is no reciprocation. That said, I don't expect every interaction to result in something. I don't mean to make it sound like I don't have any friends because I do and I love them dearly, but they live 3+ hours away and have kids who can't go do what we want to do. On top of that, 4 of them are married to/dating each other and it feels like I'm supervising a date half of the time and that's awakward for me (also a me problem to deal with). I'm frustrated that I'm doing and have been doing what i need to do to address this and have made very little (if any) progress on it, which is making me feel like I'm just a toy to play with when it's convenient. I'm exhausted putting all of this effort into it and getting nowhere

@Noor Rindho I really appreciate that! And you're absolutely right. I am always going to keep trying. I do like to think that we're friends here, and truly appreciate how much more I feel seen here. It's just exhausting trying so hard and feeling stuck all of the time. Sometimes I think just venting things like this can be helpful for anyone feeling stuck. Thank you! 💙

@Thomas Chapman that's great! I hope you have a great first day! 🙂

Feel better soon!