My whole life rest and relaxation has felt extremely dangerous. I have been โrunningโ โperformingโ and bracing for impact since exiting the womb. Both my parents were absent, one physically and the other mentally, emotionally and spiritually so I was forced to find safety through extreme adaption to my environment (Now I see, in the arms of God the whole time) I took on a very warped perception of love that took me through some very challenging relationship dynamics and a major lack of boundaries. This of course affected every area of my life. My whole life has been one big initiation and I can feel myself landing (finally) as these lessons and blessings all begin to lock in (because I am) I am starting to realise I just needed to feel safe enough to share my story. I just needed to be, here, now. Breathwork and fascia release are helping me rewire, release and recalibrate the old into the new and it feels really beautiful to get still ๐ฅน safety is key on this journey. So many times I have wanted to give up and through staying the visions get clearer, the remembrance getโs stronger and the faith roots deeper. I also completely forgot how much I heal through the elements, the Earth is my actual Mother ๐ญ You donโt have to do this alone. You are held, let yourself be held, even just for a moment. Deeply grateful for this community, thank you Jesse and everyone that said yes to themselves. Love to you all โค๏ธ Here at Dartmoor in Devon yesterday after writing a letter to all the versions of me that had to exist to survive. Honouring her with deep compassion and setting her free with divinity. Giving her back to the Earth for transmutation back to Love. We are one, we are whole I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you