The transformation from old self to new self is really scary especially if we don't have a lot of positive support around us, I understand you feeling stuck. What helped me after my divorce, 3 kids all moved away and my mom died all in the same year, I thought I was literally dieing inside and I was but my new self was emerging. It was New Years Eve and what I did was write 3 letters, one to my ex husband thanking him for our life we built in the last 25 years, one to my old self saying thank for doing the best I could right back to becoming a mom at 16 and one to my new self of what is to come even though I couldn't see or feel the vision. Once I did that I burnt them all in the kitchen sink, I was cutting the chords of the old energies with love and when I woke up January 1st, I was one day old and that's how I built my new life, one day at a time. So when life got stuck hard and sad, I would tell myself, Jackie you are only 7 days old or I am only 1 year old and what that did for me was take away all the pressure of the past, present and future for me. Now I celebrated my 20 birthday of my new life, last January 1st, I am 63 now who enjoys life even when it gets heavy, I have a beautiful person I share my life with for the past 15 years, my kids and I have a good relationship and I love my beautiful grandchildren that have given me a new vision of love to share with others. Remember you are your best friend and can create whatever you want in this and not from others opinions thoughts or actions.........just from your love that lives in your heart. I am sending you huge amounts of love, hope and faith to build the live you want and love. 🙏🎉💛