Hi everyone! First time posting here and I’m excited to meet and connect with you all. I wanna talk about a divine experience I had last night and what I’ve been going through for a while. Negative Fearful thoughts of catastrophe and death that have felt cyclical felt like it drove me into a corner in my mind and made me feel like something was wrong with my body, that I had a problem or was doomed for a short life. This was far from the case and much simpler than I could have ever imagined I never could have imagined how physical this experience was as it was not just mental. Yes, it is vital to be able to discern in your mind thoughts that are just thoughts which don’t have authority & nor are they prophetic. Ego/mind had begun making simple bodily sensations and feelings out to be something that might endanger my life or heart. It makes the splash of a pebble dropped in a lake out to be the size of a splash as if a building was dropped in the lake. And it does so through fear. Learning to listen to my body and sit with it is all it ever wanted. For me to stop running from a danger that only existed as thought forms of scary what-ifs and to reconnect with my body, feel it, and trust in it in this moment, which is the only real thing in existence. And so when we stop fighting and resisting the mind/body, the body releases tension and old emotions we didn’t know how to process years ago. It could go with tears, sighs, breath, shivers all over, gentle pops and other things. And it’s important to learn how to trust these happenings because this is where ego can freak out if you’ve ever felt hyper vigilant. But don’t be afraid, your body knows what it’s doing and naturally brings itself back to balance, harmony, & healing when you give it the space it needs and let go of fear, doubt, and control. You never have to monitor it, and nothing bad at all will come out of letting go the control. Quite the contrary. So last night I bring my body into a peaceful state and start to claim divine truths without even thinking about it. For someone who’s been feeling more raw unprocessed fear more than ever, this was calmest state of being I’d been in in a little while. God came to me as a blue formless woman and started speaking to me through my mind. Touching my heart that’s been aching for years and my stomach at the same time and saying “claim divine healing”. I did and I continued with God through this relaxing, unwinding process I’d been scared of feeling for so long. She let me know, “you’re worthy, you have a long life ahead of you, and I can’t wait to see what you bring into this world. And when you do die it will be a peaceful one long from now, you are one of the nicest people in existence” and I just felt the most love, acceptance, & safety.

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I was listening to this dhamma talk by this lady and this is what I got from it in my personal reflection. I experience mental formations from discomfort, pain, grief, sadness or stress, everyday difficulties… my response can be mental formations to distract, comfort me as fantasies or recursive thinking of situations, looking for something validating, comforting or that will make me feel smart, wise, powerful or witnessed or admired. It can also manifest in the desire to use people, places or things as tools to comfort me or please me or distract me. Also it can manifest as an aversion, an avoidance of things that I feel uncomfortable or fearful or sad or insecure about. When I don’t want to be present with the discomfort or the inevitable pain of living as a being, I can recognize these manifestations, without judgment, acknowledge it is hard or painful and find myself in the gap between the temporary and fleeting escape hatches and rather be present with the discomfort.

All suffering arises because of our identification with stories. It's not wrong to have stories, they are part of what makes life meaningful. But there's a difference between living in a story, and being imprisoned in a story you hate. Waking up means realizing that the truth of reality, and the story about it is not the same. Pain is part of life, but suffering is optional. You are not your thoughts.

Hey! I’m here because I’m looking to reconnect with a feeling I once had but lost along the way. Labels and brands (It's either this way or no way) just confuse me. I'm looking for clarity, grounding, and whatever truth shows up in my journey. Feeling lost sucks...