Another month has begun. July is here. I hate July and August if I am being honest. It’s HOT and I am not a fan of summer. The last amazing summer I had was 10 years ago. Ever since then my summers have been filled with lots of traumatic moments. I am trying to take it one day at a time and trust Abba. I want this summer to be different. It’s so hard living in this house. Being around my parents is challenging. I feel like I’m losing my patience with them. My body responds so negatively to them. This house feels so off spiritually today. My mind feels like it can’t even focus on anything. I just feel so foggy and out of it. I know I am stressed and overwhelmed. The last 2 months have been so hard for me. I would really appreciate extra prayers.today. I feel like I am never truly getting out of here but I know that’s a lie. Even this morning on a phone call I was gaslighted 2 times from my parents and I just don’t want to deal with that anymore. I’m tired 😔

I think the next few weeks I may be working on the notes for some new videos I want to upload on here. I have written down the video ideas you guys have already shared with me in another post 🙌🏼 If you have any other video ideas you want me to do soon…comment them below and I am going to prayerfully work away at them 🤩

(Feel free to comment your prayer requests for today down in the comment section) I have been anxious all day today. My heart has been racing due to how stressed I feel in this current season I am in. I know my heart is healthy but it’s so heavy. I feel very overwhelmed and yet God tells me to just wait on Him. I know He is sustaining me but this is just awful 😔 There’s NO sign of reprieve and now Abba asked me today if He has permission to reveal something to me and I was like Yes but NOW WHAT!?? My brain feels like it wants to explode and my heart just wants to cry.

Wow. So I just had the worst period cramps I’ve had in probably a year and a half almost 2 years. They were so painful and caused me to feel very sick…I even threw up which I NEVER do. I hate that feeling so much. I know I’m not doing well if I throw up. I had to call my Mom and ask her to come home early from work because I couldn’t walk or hardly talk due to the pain. This doesn’t happen to me often but when it does I typically feel better by the evening. I still feel just awful. It’s very discouraging. My parents are supposed to be gone for the majority of the next two days too and it stresses me out thinking about being alone feeling like this. I am just feeling very defeated, discouraged, and annoyed this evening. Lots of heavy feelings and thoughts are hitting me as I have been bed bound all day. Prayers are greatly appreciated ♥️

I hope you are enjoying the courses so far. What other topics would you like me to chat about? Or other questions in general that you’ve always been puzzled by in the faith and in regards to the Bible? Are their other topics other than the common ones that you’d like to know more about? Like more practical topics? Or even deeper spiritual topics? Comment below and I’ll pray into it and see if I can bring clarity to you as God brings me clarity ♥️ I pray you have a GREAT start to the week 🫂