Another month has begun. July is here. I hate July and August if I am being honest. It’s HOT and I am not a fan of summer. The last amazing summer I had was 10 years ago. Ever since then my summers have been filled with lots of traumatic moments. I am trying to take it one day at a time and trust Abba. I want this summer to be different. It’s so hard living in this house. Being around my parents is challenging. I feel like I’m losing my patience with them. My body responds so negatively to them. This house feels so off spiritually today. My mind feels like it can’t even focus on anything. I just feel so foggy and out of it. I know I am stressed and overwhelmed. The last 2 months have been so hard for me. I would really appreciate extra prayers.today. I feel like I am never truly getting out of here but I know that’s a lie. Even this morning on a phone call I was gaslighted 2 times from my parents and I just don’t want to deal with that anymore. I’m tired 😔

I feel a bit defeated, and a stumbling rock in this life. I wish I could delete my existence sometimes…

@Isra Rose had an idea to have a post on here where we can comment below songs we are loving or tag playlists. I loved the idea. Feel free to keep this post comment section a music sharing zone 😎 What are you listening to right now? Share it with us 💃🏻

Tonight Abba gave me a letter and in the letter He said… “You’ve been through the fire. You’ve seen what I want you to see. The fire exposed all that I wanted you to see. When you look into the fire you see Me. I become clear. AM clear to you. This process is not for the faint of heart.” Soon after I saw a vision of me at the end of a fiery tunnel-like path. The face of Jesus was at the end of the path. I was standing there looking at Jesus. I only saw His face. He had fiery eyes and was so pure. His head was bigger than my whole being in this vision. I was just standing there and suddenly I saw a green fire start to come from below me and try to engulf me. It was trying to burn me and hurt me. It felt threatening and so oppressive. There was no heat but it was somehow fiery. The pure fire of Jesus that I had just come from wasn’t aimed at me. It was aimed at the sin in my life and my blindspots. It was targeting the things that were hurting me and burning those off. It was healing me and refreshing me even when it was hot. But never harming me. The green fire was VERY different. It was targeting me physically. Coming for my physical body. I firmly believe this vision isn’t just for me but for the body of Christ. Many born again believers are out of the fiery trial sent from the God of the Bible but they are feeling more burned then ever. It’s been confusing for them and caused them some hopelessness. They feel like this will be their forever and there will never truly be a light at the end of the tunnel. This is a lie. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and His name is Jesus. He is there with you. The green fire will not harm you. It’s intended for harm but it will only strengthen you as you keep your gaze focused on the I AM. Take heart born again believer. Take heart. If this is for you too…the refining is done for now. For this season of your life it’s DONE. You’ll know what I mean because Abba will confirm this to you. You’ll still have trials and maybe even persecution.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE EXTRA PRAYERS THE LAST WEEK ESPECIALLY <3