The mirror principle just clicked. My cluttered flat that I keep "shoving stuff away" in is the exact shape of the beliefs I can't let go of. And my morning exhaustion isn't laziness - my nervous system has been bracing against a building where I spent six years being abused. My body still thinks I'm in danger.

Just realized the voice telling me I'm "broken and will never get fixed" isn't actually mine - it's stitched together from my parents and my ex-husband. And the wildest part? I already have evidence it's a lie. I just hadn't connected the dots until now.

Okay… slightly gross question, so apologies in advance Does anyone else have a picking problem? Like… if there’s a scab on my body, it’s basically a personal challenge. My brain is like, “oh, we’re doing this.” but at the same time i dobit without even thinking about doing it.... I know that is a contradiction 🤔 I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember, so I finally looked it up and apparently it’s actually a thing called Dermatillomania (aka Excoriation Disorder). It falls under body-focused repetitive behaviors (BFRBs), kind of in the OCD family. Just curious if I’m alone in this or if this is one of those “why are we like this” club situations 🤔 🤣🥰

Section 2 of the Awakening Assessment just showed me that the same sensitivity I used as a kid to save a pigeon that couldn't fly got redirected into perfectionism and people-pleasing. I climbed from barista to store manager chasing approval I didn't actually want. Turns out the "invisible one" is actually a natural community-builder underneath.

Just started the ADHD Awakening Assessment and already realized something I've been missing for years: my brain isn't refusing structure because I'm lazy, it's refusing it because my nervous system is still in survival mode. Every productivity system I tried was built for a regulated brain, not the one I'm actually working with. Biggest insight: I am trying to fit into a system that is designed for neurotypical people My open loop is: I have to sell 2 baby carriers that are sitting in a drawer for years now One word for how I feel right now: exhausted