@Klaudia Moon I think it is all the emotions, disappointment at myself for feeling they way that I feel, resentment towards others for putting me in the situation in the first place, feeling like "Why me"? I feel misunderstood when I try to explain my emotions, which then sets everyone off. I feel that I haven't quite got the words to adequately express my feelings, but mostly, I feel overwhelmed with situations that I am currently dealing with and feel alone and unsupported. Quite a lot of emotions, and they spiral one into the other, I guess the reason for the raised heart rate π¨. But the good side of it, is I allow the emotions briefly but haven't yet found the strength/space to explore them truthfully.