LFG

Had a horrible weekend and Father's Day because there was a verbal fight. But it kind of has turned around, I mean at least she doesn't want a divorce so has to mean something. Not looking for likes or anything, just posting here as my journal, love all you guys and gals here and you do make me stronger knowing I have this community. I may be gone for a while but just knowing in my head if I ever need to get something out I have this and my community and online friends.

Today I'm going to the cemetery to see my brother and thank him. He's sadly gone and as an Army Veteran myself today is a hard day.

Wins: Studied. Day 5 no smoking anything. To sleep I use melatonin. Im getting used to craves even if my mind plans on how to smoke (like im driving for groceries but it wont shut up like "if you turn right, then left, get some money and go there you are going to get some"). I just ignore it, its pure automatism. No sport today (I failed) but I bought sport material necessary to continue improving. I cannot miss tomorrow you will see. The best win of the day? Going through police control and not panicking. Battle continues. Nico.

I got my AA degree officially, fuck yeah!!!!