Hii sorry I’ve been MIA school and work have been draining me these past few weeks and I had some personal things happening so my mental state has been eh. I’m trying to stay locked in to graduate this year in May with my associates degree but it’s been tough to find the motivation to get back in a routine and actually lock in and do my work with out staring at a computer screen all day. My stress level has gone down a little bit my anxiety level has been in the middle but it has definitely been tough. If anyone has any tips or advice I would appreciate it:)

I’m in a rut, and I have not been as disciplined and structured as I have been. I slipped back into the old version of myself because of some major depression as a result of personal aspects of my life. But ya know what? I am going to do a hard reset. I’m choosing myself, again and again, because that is what is rewarding. I’m not going to fall back into old habits and old patterns, instead I am recognizing it and resetting asap. I start a real gym membership this week (no more rec centre trips for me!) and I’m back on track with my diet plan. Nobody is perfect, and we all have hard times and tests of strength. I am grateful, because God has given me the ability to be self aware and the strength to do what is best for who I want to be. 💜🥰💪

This hit me hard— When I started this process, and realized I had to change, I had the thought that that version of me wasn’t enough. Was she really that bad? The truth is, she was just not equipped to carry and handle the life I truly wanted. She had to evolve, she had to elevate, and now I am stepping further into that 2.0 version of me every single day.

Todah, I am grateful for what God has given me, and for what I was able to let go of. Even if it felt like my life was over, holding onto things for too long means my hands are full, and He cannot hand to me what is truly meant for me. I am grateful for the strength to let go, even when it hurts. Grateful for the knowledge and signs that I should leave something or someone behind. Grateful that some doors close, just for others to open. 💜