Section 2 of my Snapshot just hit different. I always called it frustration, but what I'm actually carrying is grief over time I can't get back. And the cycle I keep blaming myself for? It's not a willpower problem, it's my nervous system trying to escape overwhelm. Seeing it named like this changes something.

Section 2 of the Awakening Assessment just showed me how the little girl who loved "playing school" became the adult who learned to be "the invisible one." I always thought feeling unlovable was the problem, but I actually believe I'm a good person. The real pattern is that I learned being lovable and being chosen were two separate things.

Just finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and realised something. For years I wasn't struggling with confidence, I was quietly judging myself for not being able to do things other people find easy. Turns out I couldn't ride the bike without stabilisers because I had wings the whole time And on a side note. Damn I wish I’d seen/noticed when this challenge started. (That’s still the bloody bike!! 😂) I’m not going to have time to finish it today 😔

OK...I have to share this because I'm kind of proud of myself. Exercise was one of the things we were recommended to be doing during the cohort, and I did it every once in a while, but I really wasn't really regular with it. A big part of it was that it's so hot here, and the idea of going outside to exercise in this heat was just...NO. So now that the cohort is over, something finally clicked for me this past week. I realized that I really have to start doing this regularly. I started doing these short exercise videos on YouTube (around 20 minutes each), and I've done one every day for the past few days. I can't believe it. I love it. They're short enough that I can actually stick with it. I feel really good. I can already tell this is something I'm going to keep doing. I just wanted to put this out there because I know some people struggled with the exercise piece. If anyone else has been stuck on it, try a short video on YouTube.

Really loving the insights from day 3. I loved the question of what would life look like if I fully believed that I am capable, consistent and worthy. All words I would never use to describe myself, yet I can find evidence to the contrary when I allow myself to dig deeper.