I'm sorry to hear about how you were treated, it must have been an awful experience. I've also noticed during the times in my life when I've been most stressed, my health takes a turn for the worse and I make uncharacteristic decisions. I think a lot of people appreciate your vulnerability, especially in an age of "perfect" influencers. I'm a big believer that everything happens for a reason though, so I think your mindset of having "dodged a bullet" is a great way to look at things and I'm sure you'll meet someone who supports you in the near future. Also agree with your take on Medical Medium. Plenty of good information that'll benefit a lot of people, but there really is no "one size fits all" approach to health. I think anyone who claims to have all of the answers is setting themselves up for a very slippery slope. I admire someone who is willing to change their opinion as they're presented with new evidence or life experiences.