Apostle this was so direct, so raw, so real! I am going to try and make this short. I honestly just got done with my devotion and prayer and I sit here listening and crying. I started listening when you first started and cut it off. Cause my mind had been messing with me heavy these past few weeks. I’m staying connected to reading word and praying but I’ve pulled away from the weight of completing some of the assignments and the next steps to where God wants me. I get hesitant at times because I get very passionate about the purpose and the things of God. That was my original focus of podcasting when I did it was called Coleman on Purpose. I prayed this morning that every gift that Lord gave me was from writing, singing, acting, and speaking be used to win people to Christ. But these past weeks I felt my passion for those things slipping away and that’s scary because what am I outside of those things. The he just told through a devotional today Ephesians 5:17 to know his will for my life. I know some of those things play a part but as you were speaking I feel there are some foundational things missing. As you were talking about Christ and people leaving things behind to follow I automatically started thinking about the past 11 years in the aviation industry I know I’m there for a reason but what does like look like without that financially, spiritually, locationally, and everything in between. I’m in a a very transformative place right now and it is overwhelming but I am holding on. Thank you for you vulnerability and heart in this message I hear you and feel you and that’s all. This is just where I am at.

Amen

Man I can’t believe this I’m def in a wanting to sit down this week because creatively still dry though I worked on something yesterday but never posted it. I was creating it for the month of June but was afraid I couldn’t keep up with the consistency of posting and making it how it was in my head. But this encouraged me to still post. You are so aligned with the heart of everyone in here. Thank you Apostle. I know God is igniting something and I need to run towards it.

Hey I’ve had a pretty long work week but now I get a break and I have time to let my mind relax. About to go walk at Crowders mountain to clear my mind after breakfast!! Hope you are well and have a great day if you need anything let me know as well.

Pinning this! At work but will revisit this tonight after!!! Cause I’ll be thinking about this throughout the day.

Check In Mentally: Work has kind of taken over my life this happens every summer with flying so the times I get by myself I just want to relax I have to push to do extra. Emotionally: I am stable gets lonely at times but I get through it with the word and old tv sitcoms they bring me happiness and comfort in certain moments lol Spiritually: I have felt more connected to God because I am learning to tackle thought patterns right away without them lingering. I also have cut back a bit on how many voices I’m listening to I don’t want to overload myself with too much information. Physically: My church is doing a Moving in May challenge and I’ve been walking a lot and getting steps as well as bringing workout clothes with me to layovers to workout in the gym. I want to carry through and continue doing this in June and make it become a natural routine Creatively: Not much at all, have had a pretty dry season from my usual I have ideas and they just sit I write them down and then I kind of question how these can connect to the grand scheme of things. I really think I need to stop thinking about future and just create in the moment like I used to. Productively: Although my creative flow is not at its height I still somehow feel productive most days because I’m either posting encouragement or just general content that keeps me connected to A community of people that enjoy the same things or just need to feel like they have purpose. I do want to be a bit more productive and get back to narrowing down how I want to form the book that I want to write whether I want it to be a story, a play, a book with journal entries that show a persons real walk towards the Lord, or a inspirational book. I’ve been toiling with this for 5-6 years it’s time to truly lock in. My inner world: Changing so much, like I said this a little bit of a lonely time because as I grow relationships begin to change I’m still looking for direction in the area of physical community because I do need people that understand spiritually as a creative where I’m at. I haven’t quite found that at my church so I am thankful for Kingdom Lab I’d rather do it virtually than nothing at all.