I’m going through a lot spiritually right now. There’s a heavy presence of African spiritualism influencing my life, and I feel like I’m in the middle of a spiritual attack. My relationship with my relatives is more strained than it has ever been, and my sensitivity to everything around me has increased to the point where it’s hard to control my emotions and reactions. Because I don’t have a strong support system, I worry that people will dismiss me as “crazy” or mentally unstable if I express what I’m really going through. I already feel isolated, and although my background in Hinduism and African spiritual practices gives me some grounding, I still struggle to find real guidance or spiritual support. I rarely go out, and I worry that if I can’t manage my temperament, I could end up in serious trouble. I try to take care of myself by meditating, burning sage, reading the Bible, and reciting Ganesha mantras, but I’m still struggling—especially with holding down a job. On top of that, my mom often ridicules me, sometimes passively, whenever things aren’t going her way, which makes things even harder for me. I really need advice and guidance on how to handle all of this.

I’ve been struggling with being understood, but it never occurred to me that the same crowd might not want me to be understood—because of race. Every day, I spoke with the same person from another race. Even now, though I speak clearly and articulate my thoughts well, people still ask if I “meant to say this or that,” knowing full well they understood me the first time. It’s a way of stripping power and relevance from my words. What to do? What to do? The universe seems to conspire with its spells to keep me silent.

I recently discovered that the owl hoots I thought were harmless actually symbolized despair. I was scammed by people posing as trustworthy investors who sent me small amounts of cryptocurrency to build my trust. Over time, as they kept paying, they also kept asking for more from me. Eventually, I invested my last funds, believing I would be paid in return—but I received nothing. Then they asked for even more money. Beware—scammers are becoming more sophisticated, using psychology at its highest level. They got me, and I don’t want them to get you too.

"Man is tormented not by the suffering itself, but by the meaninglessness of suffering." Friedrich Nietzsche

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