I've been in a depression and grieving for 15 years. It's been one death after another... grief accumulating... starting with my husband of 32 years, followed by best friend, brother 1, and brother 2. I had been caretaker for 3 of them. Then my son, who was a great support, relocated away. I have never felt so alone and lost. I don't think I have ever dealt with all the grief.. just fell into a depression hole and zero'd out. This was a lead-in to developing anxiety attacks. I never thought I had ADHD until my sister mentioned it. While researching this idea, I found this: "The fatigue and lack of motivation that can come with depression are made that much worse by ADHD. All of the energy that I need to focus is drained from me when I’m experiencing depression. My ability to manage my life spirals completely out of control and the only thing I can think about is how terrible I feel. Things that are simple when I am not depressed become nearly impossible when I am. Feelings of inadequacy are overwhelming and make me feel like I’ll never get a handle on managing the disorder, which can be very discouraging. Some part of me deep down is screaming, “Pull it together!” But it feels impossible to do." I think finding the post about ADHD Harmony was divine intervention! I was at the end of my rope. With this program, there have been so many Aha moments that I never connected together. These past 5 days have been emotionally draining ... in a good way. The final report has shown me how I got to who/where I am and that there is a light at the end of this tunnel. I have hope again, and a path back to myself. Thank you to Jim for making this possible, and to all who are on this trip also, thanks for your input in the community. Just reading your posts has helped so much. My wish for all is to find our Ikigai, and enjoy the journey! God Bless.

Started day 1, missed day 2, made day 3, parts of day 4 & 5… typical, not consistent and didn’t complete a course (again)! Except, this had got my interest and the ‘carrot’ of the full AI report at the end of completing 15 (only 3 per day!) questions was enough. Answered them all this evening, got the report and am in a very emotional state! Now to catch up on daily tasks. #willcompletethis !!

⚖️ The belief that's been holding me back most: I am not important and what it doesn't matter much what I do; I don't have a purpose 📍 Where it came from: I am actually still wondering this. I left my previous job when I realized there was no possibility to grow and progress in a position with more responsibilities; I also had an argument with my supervisor from which led to my belief that he thought I was not good enough. But it probably came much earlier, during my studies at school I've always had good grades without much effort but never tried to be the top in the class ✨ My new code: I can make a difference, I have a unique background and capabilities, there may be something I can see and build that no one else would do 🔮 My Future Self statement: "I am the kind of person who can make the difference and change the world around me to create beauty and be remembered" 💪 Debugging in progress...

Why do I have a random cat picture, and if I press 'Make it Rain' there's a bunch of noisy pop-up messages with celebrity names and amounts of money on them???? I found him!!! Screen-shot added...

I am posting it again although on my 5th day after all the video calls (and I only missed one)... I started the previous challenge but didn't go far in it, now I read what I posted the first time and revising in light of what I learned and life happening in-between...the open loop I chose the first time was quite a big one, entangled in emotional meaning and all but a small task 😅 🧠 Biggest insight: I realized my prevailing mask is not was I thought initially... I have used some of all them but the main one is the Invisible... I have been hiding myself almost my whole life ⚡️ My open loop is: Bring my laptop to the repair shop 💛 One word for how I feel right now: Hopeful