My name is Sabrina. I’m from Maine. I experienced my first loss at six which is what I believe. My awakening started then fast-forward to August 2025 I lost my baby brother very publicly and my safe space. Now I am face first into the mother load of all awakenings and I feel I’m battling more than just my own festering darkness but I’ve seen my son father’s dark hold, the kind of darkness that feed from alcoholism or maybe it’s mine. I can’t tell the difference between what’s mine or his anymore. So this is my last attempt to get ahold of this to know and overcome or shut it off. I’m tired of the life of constant battle mode this madness & chaos brings. My heart is heavy. My soul is tired. And I’d rather shut off spirituality than loose myself to a dark life awake.