Hi guys! I wanted to share some things that are helping me hold on during an extremely uncertain, sad, stressful etc time. I've realized that I'm a streaker 😁 could be adhd, ptsd, single mom-dom, or just a me-thing. But regardless, it WORKS for me!! That being said, today will be day 36(!!) in a row that I've done what I call my car routine. The car is the only semi-private, semi-safe place I have right now. But I can now say that while it still doesn't feel automatic or easy, it IS a good thing for me! I set a timer when I go in there and let myself FEEL for 10 minutes. Believe it or not this has taken a LOT of work to even get to that point. ESPECIALLY when my life isn't figured out yet and the never ending chores aren't "finished"😅🤣 After I had done that for a while, I added another what I'm calling "anchor": phone is turned OFF for the night by 10 pm every night. And it "sleeps" outside my bedroom. I did this for several reasons but one of them was that I kept falling asleep with earbuds in my ear. Ouch 😅 Last night was night 14 of that routine. From there, I've now added yoga (today will be day 5 of that streak) and breathwork (today will be day 4 of that streak) The reason I'm sharing all of this is not because I think it is impressive haha. I just truly feel that I've gone through what I have (and am still going through) for a reason. And I believe part of that reason is to BE the encouragement for others who are struggling. I got the book atomic habits and it actually reiterates a lot of what I'm doing But that helps the part of my brain(programming) that "doesn't believe stuff on the internet" haha. Anyway, I just wanted to share what is helping me. Not only to "hold on for dear life", but to truly build a foundation. If anyone else is trying to build a positive habit, I would love to support you! Love you guys!

Not just what’s happening on the surface, but the deeper loops you seem to keep running. The moments where you think 'Why does this keep happening?' or 'Why do I always end up back here?' Sometimes we get so used to our struggles that they start to feel like part of who we are. But what if they’re not? What if they’re just patterns - patterns that can be understood, unraveled, and rewritten? Take a moment. What’s showing up for you right now? What keeps repeating? Let’s start there.

Is it crazy to think that doing inner work could be the key to shifting outer circumstances? Recently I put my house in Austin Texas up for sale… I’ve had a shift in values over the last few years and as a result have wanted to own less materialistic things Owning an investment house became mental bandwidth that included finding renters, paying for repairs and high property taxes out here in Texas As a result about 5 months ago I decided… I am going to SELL it and be free of it At the suggestion of the real estate agent I put in about 40K to make it perfect with the intention that it will sell fast and I’d get back what I put in After the repairs and upgrades in February we put it on the market For weeks there was a lot of buzz with it People seeing it saying they liked it, open houses, etc However no offers came through in the first month And to be honest…. The market in Austin has been slow and down for the last few years Was I energetically attracted to it selling and holding energy that was blocking it from selling? If the outer reality is a reflection of the inner, what do I need to shift? In that frustration I was doing some inner reflection and had some big realizations… The way I related to the house was similar emotion to childhood I felt trapped by the house… it felt "not fair" (very similar to childhood energy where I felt stuck with controlling step mom) I bought when the market was growing and then it tanked I felt the burden of the house and that I was STUCK in it And NOW it’s not selling and I still feel trapped I was reading a book one night on healing the inner child and had a huge realization I felt "victim" to the situation. I was carrying the energy of this is happening TO ME The house was a reflection of how I felt about it and how I was showing up I also realized I was waiting to feel free ONCE the house sold So in this awareness I made a choice before falling asleep that night… I am not a victim. I can handle it. I will do what I need to do and be patient. God/the divine can take the wheel

Good morning! I am excited for today's zoom! I have adhd and most likely autism. I say that because those labels no longer make me feel ashamed. They FREE me, believe it or not! So that being said, I'm using today's Zoom as an anchor for myself to organize my tasks around. It happens at 11 am my time (time blindness is a real freaking thing but I'm learning what works for me to help it). I've already set a verbal reminder 30 minutes prior to when it starts. I'm going to use it as an anchor for me to eat lunch during it. So that I eat 😅 All this to say, I'm grateful! I loved Friday's session so much! Thank you for doing this! I'm a single mom without an in-person "village" and this type of interaction helps me feel not so alone. Thank you!

I'm having epiphanies come to me! And one that just hit me was: Cathy, don't even worry about "if fear hits".. if intrusive thoughts come etc. I'm realizing it doesn't actually matter if they come! ALL that matters is what I CHOOSE to do with them!! Holy cow!!! This is truly exciting and feels like a MASSIVE RELIEF for my psyche I still want to meditate and do breathwork etc.. because I genuinely LIKE doing those. But my point is, that IS the point. So whether I meditate right after having intrusive thoughts, or i meditate right after waking up feeling blissful... it is the same ACTION. Meditation! Ooh! Let's think of this like going to the gym! Some people go to the gym because they've been ordered by their doctor that they MUST lose weight. Some people go the gym to check out other people haha. Some people go the gym to STAY in shape. Some people go to the gym to GET in shape. Some people go to the gym to socialize. Etc. Right? But the ACTION is the same, no matter the motive. Holy cow!! So!! We can apply this same philosophy to any sort of self care or mindset work etc. I'm just reminding myself because I do think in the past, that when my life externally started to "improve, I automatically DROPPED any sort of self care or time for myself etc. But in reality, that was abandoning myself!! So hold me accountable!! Not that I can't tweak my habits over time, but the fundamentals need to remain..well.. FUNDAMENTAL 🤣 Anyway, hope this helps in some way! This is what happens when I meditate and clear some of the crap that never belonged to me anyway! Is that inspiration hits me! All of that to say, bottom line, is to KEEP doing the things that are good for you and make you happy. And some days, it might seem almost too easy and "you don't need to do that thing".. but ESPECIALLY with adhd, we don't naturally see what i call the trickle down effect. But it IS there. It DOES happen. Ok need to eat (example of a fundamental that doesn't come naturally to me 😅🤣). Love you guys!!