I realized something today. I unknowingly have been closed off to opportunities. I suffered some pretty horrific traumas in my early childhood and grew up in a very toxic family. When I became an adult, I felt hopeful I would have a good life because I was now free from my family, so I thought. My family was so critical and self righteous. I never liked that. But I didn’t know how much it rubbed off on me. I also didn’t know how to see opportunities when they came up and if I did see it, I didn’t know how to navigate. My family made me feel guilty about asking for anything. They treated me like I didn’t deserve anything good in life and it was shameful of me to want or accept good things. The conditioning and traumas left me unable to make good decisions and to know how to connect with people in a way that fostered deeper relationships. I’ve always been a social person and have had “friends” but I often end up alone on holidays and weekends. It’s depressing and it’s not how I want to keep experiencing life. I realize that my early experiences left me hyper vigilant and skeptical of everything and everyone. But that actually invited in more situations to not trust people. I’ve been screwed over more times than anyone I know. So, the conundrum is that I get stuck in the trauma energy and then that creates more trauma and then that makes the energy stronger and that much more difficult to break free from. After a while, it felt like no one really cared about me and the world seems to be against me. But it’s not. It’s that trauma trying to protect me. Unfortunately, now it is harming me and has been for many years. So, I’m actively going to be more mindful of my judgements and fears and keep those in check. I also am actively looking for people I can have good deep long lasting relationships with and learning how to fosters those.

This morning, I had an odd dream. It was dark. Chaotic noises in the dark. I was awakened by a voice that said , " We seek the quiet vicissitude of now soulless victims." Of course there was no real voice since my dog can't speak English. I found this statement disturbing. I had to look up the word "vicissitude" as I had never heard it before. It basically means unpleasant, surprise changes, often associated with hard times. Who would seek that and who are the "now soulless victims" it's sought for? I believe my mind intercepted their thoughts....but who are "they?" I would appreciate any insight from one of our many intuitive members.

hey everyone! awesome call today! we went deep on the Consciousness of Allowing, know that the thing you're seeking isn't something you need to attain Albert Einstein said, "You cannot solve a problem from the same level of consciousness that created it." the more we accept where we are, the easier it becomes to SHIFT into a higher state of consciousness if you want to watch the replay, it's below here is a free 7 day trial AND you can join the live call on Sunday! → https://www.skool.com/highvibeschool/about HW for today: ✨ what was your BIGGEST insight from today’s call? share it in the comments below and let me know if you want more LIVE calls like we did today!

I know this is short notice but… I trust that the right people will see this email that are supposed to! 2 spots just opened up in our upcoming Costa Rica Ayahuasca Retreat that takes place only ONCE a year in Costa Rica! you are seeing this because we prefer to have people there that have been doing the work and that's why I priortize those And that means possibly YOU! the dates are July 21th to the 26th! what it is… this is an all inclusive plant medicine retreat that my friends Victor and I “organize” in Nosara, Costa Rica we work with AMAZING shamans (with decades of experience) that run the actual ceremonies. this annual retreat involves 3 nights of ayahuasca the details… If you want all the details you can click the link below https://www.soulinaretreats.com/ this retreat is all about people coming together for the purpose of healing, transformation, and connection Who feel a natural calling to the medicine… There is an application process and you must get on the phone to see if its a fit However the healing and transformation that goes on at these retreats is MAGICAL and the connections, the bonds, and friendships are priceless. It can be hard to meet like minded souls… but this retreat will be filled with them PS… Please only apply if you feel called to work with the medicine… this is not for everyone… however, for those that feel called, it can be absolutely life changing. you can learn more and apply here https://www.soulinaretreats.com/

In this workshop you will learn how to transcend creating from struggle and hustle with all the burden on the ego You will learn how to fall in love with the process and embody the energy of BEING it now instead of in the future We will do a meditation, lesson and Q and A here is the zoom link for 10am PST tomorrow! https://us02web.zoom.us/j/89335304216 share this group with friends its free! whose coming and what would you like to learn in tomorrows workshop connected to the topic above? put your questions here!