That's so weird Im seeing this I just asked the Lord about forgiveness cause while I get forgiveness I was asking him does that mean I have to bring myself around the one that hurt me so bad hurt my kids I had a hard time forgiving I feel like I can forgive but I can't bring myself around them and that would be my mom and stepdad for the biggest ones so it's really hard for me to bring myself around it's really bad with them big time toxic and I don't even know if toxic would even be the word to fully describe them. And I cry while typing that cause that's why I can't bring myself around them it's that bad I want to forgive for the Lord but I just can't bring myself around them