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Spiritual Rebels
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May 13 •
My Ex left me postcards…
I recently had my Ex end the relationship with me and its been A month. Its only yesterday that I promised not to chase her again. Yesterday as well, I Threw away clothes including stuff she gifted me but there certain gifts that I feel bad for throwing away like those postcards. Issue is, everytime I open up my drawer looking for something, I see those cards and it brings me back to that state of mind of guilt and sorrow. The question is, should I throw them away? The answer is yes, consciously. But im looking for an excuse or a good reason to keep them since im still attached to them. Yet, because of that attachment, is the reason why I wanna throw them away to help myself move on and not get pulled into this again. Thanks for reading.
May 13 •
Pattern Break
So since joining I've come to notice some patterns that need to break in the way that I show up at work I've noticed that the same pattern from childhood that hyper vigilance and fear around getting it wrong pops up and I can't help but think and overthink and meaning make and try to make sense of it all. Part of me feels that my attachment to my business partner and best friend is really a trauma bond and like my heart isn't in the Business anymore...however there is this fear of hurting her which is a fear of disappointing her which I know is not mine to control but it's still very difficult. Part of me wants to let go and completely sever ties and then part of me wants to remain loyal and stay the course. Here's the conflicting part she's been absolutely monumental to my growth and assisted me with getting myself out there again, making connections,and facing fears. And I feel like that's where she's at right now and I know my support is valuable but it feels like it's not enough...I don't know it feels like it's time to end it but there's something holding me back from doing so
3 likes • May 13
Hi brother, better end it before it spirals out of control, correct me if im wrong but it sounds like you are being too nice about your partner. At least thats what I would have wrote if I was still with her just to not say in truth: I never was fully committed to her, out of resentment towards her, I said some horrible things and she broke up with me but this break up was scheduled since the start. I was the one looking for the relationship, I begged her to be my girl, but was always on the edge with her like if it was slippery ice cubes. Long story short, in truth, im pissed that I didn’t end the relationship because I wanted to be that guy for her, the one that unconditionally loves. But in reality, thanks to her (without counting the judgement or the negative connotation) she pointed out through out the relationship my own psychological relationship with myself. In truth, she never was meant for a relationship but I forced it as the “fixer” role. Once I realized she was too rigid to be fixed, I resented her for not being what I envisioned/projected. But long story short, that intense fear you have, sounds like its the answer to all your issues at least with your whole self. A lot of time bro, these intense emotions take up space in our minds because we accidentally feed them. If you pay close attention to the triggers for the worry and fear- at least you will recognize more patterns And become aware of it. Im telling you brother, I suffer from judging myself, yesterday she came up my mind, and my real estate suddenly is flooded and the fear/worry all felt so real that I could damn near said I manifested it into existence. Called out from my part time job and at my full time job I had to leave early because I already had 2 hours on and off crying and making myself feel sadness sorrow and guilt. Got off and God bless I have my brother that has clear mind so he can speak about and act on what I actively reject from myself. Me explaining all of this to you shows how im a fixer since I can point out other peoples issues but too hurt when I point to myself.
Dec '25 •
I judge myself too much
Judging myself is a pattern my older brother has noticed for a long time and it's one of the only things I feel as I turn a blind eye to while still being aware of it. My thought process goes in loopholes of negative thoughts that I label and identify with it and usually I cry to it rather than rage about it since I found a long time ago that rage didn't help in nothing ( fck I just judged myself LMFAO) its something Im starting to catch on to but it feels terribly hard to endure and the self belief I have in me is none. Thoughts come of other people around me and how I find all the bad things in them and get mad at them but at the same time I am conscious that its only my emotions going haywire so that hatred or whatever resentment toward that person or something is turned instead inward to not take action on my ego/emotions. Example: may feel bad toward a little thing said from my girlfriend and I feed into that so much unconsciously that I get to a breaking point where I wanna end the relationship outta nowhere or instead shit on myself on how I'm useless for letting such little thoughts or allowing myself to become so affected about it ( all of that only happens in the mind and maybe you'll see me rocking back and forth pouting like a 12 year old in silence ) then. I cry. Nothing happens and I move on. But all of that is nothing efficient- since that sole example is to demonstrate how I struggle with thoughts and it takes my whole energy and day away leaving me what people call it depressed. I'm fully aware of how I'm judging myself yet I can't seem to find a way to stop it because I have to admit it also feels good to ruminate. I don't expect a solution but this is my lowkey way of asking for help on how to stop this. The only time's I don't pay attention, move on or simply don't have negative thoughts labeled as bad is when I'm High. Yeah idk what else to say lol much love to everyone.
Dec '25 •
Perfect, Darling
Y'all are all perfect ❤️ exactly as you are. Bright shiny stars. I feel an abundance of love and encouragement. Good things are coming, friends. The world is going to be ok. Heaven IS being manifested on the earth right here right now. All we have is this present moment. We're not waiting for a future. We have the authority and the power to bring heaven to Earth. All of the cosmos exists within you. When you have authority over yourself, you have authority over the entire universe. Love, peace and joy is the default state because that is who God is. Yes he is the all in all. Yes he is the destruction and the chaos. Once our brains evolved to recognize right and wrong and good and evil, we created imbalance. By letting go of our judgments we let go of the imbalance, restoring balance to God and to ourselves and the universe. The great thing is, we also exist outside of the universe. We are eternal. We actually are the ones creating and generating this experience. So if we decide that we don't like hurt, pain, starvation, evil, abuse, etc, we have the authority and power to manifest our definition of heaven here! We are God. But we have to recognize the perfection and the balance of the present moment before we have the authority to make the changes we desire. It's possible to hold two truths in your head at the same time.
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