Today is a few days now of consistency on all things SANE. The clean digestion feeling, the clear head, the slight soreness, the knowing that sleep will be good, this is sanity.

Good talk with Joey and Wade tonight. I am so aware of what to do and so aware about why I don’t. Realizing a goal and a timeframe to push for 12 weeks is key. Extra tight adherence to the meal plan for a time is the way. Need to just accept it is happening and a more balancing out calories and protein approach will come as well. Time to push.

There is this time that happens when I am doing SANE at a very high level after a week or two with no real setbacks…..I feel high. I feel great, inflammation especially in the gut is non existent, sleep is magical, strength and confidence are gold. Then an urge….”Wow, fall flavors, maple cookies, pumpkin lattes, Halloween chocolate!” Nostalgia hits, I’m a kid, Charlie Brown is on, homemade warm rice crispy treats at my childhood home in the living room!!! I WANT it….. Now, I could fit something into my calories and protein, pumpkin latte with protein milk and sugar free, but I want the real deal in that moment. This is when urge surfing can really help! Urge surfing is to live in that want and wait, just wait, then wait some more, soon either you are good and realize it will take from your goal, then maybe the alternative version hits that nostalgia just nice and fun. Urge surfing can give me the pause I need to get control. Live in the want and really feeling it with forced waiting helps me to identify and label it, get that great feeling while waiting and decide on being all good or choose an alternative. Urge surf man, urge surf!!!!

I have noticed that a pattern of failure for me starts with poor sleep. Once poor sleep domino falls it triggers a cascade of not wanting to workout because of how tired and down I feel. Then mentally failing starts to creep in, that fail feeling is evil it promotes seeking comfort from poison. That poison is always coming from self talk of “Just a little, the day is lost anyways, you will start tomorrow and get back on it.” This leads to digestion going south. This will make me down mentally and the compound horrible sleep into now days in a row. That chain of events is very hard to get back out of and it spirals. I think this series of events is what has most people trapped! It is chicken and egg and for me, the way out is to remember digestion. When the nostalgia of processed foods and over indulgence hits, I am training myself to immediately remember digestion.

One small lie I’ve been telling myself is if I take a few chips or bites of a muffin it does not count. This week I’m replacing it with the truth: Everything counts.