Why did this keep happening?
Different faces. Same toxic dynamic. At first I thought I just had bad luck. Then I thought maybe I was the problem. But really, I was just playing out old patterns. When you grow up learning love through inconsistency When love means performing, proving, pleasing You start confusing anxiety with connection You start chasing the very thing that’s draining you. That’s what I did. For years. I stayed in a toxic relationship for almost two years. She was hot and cold. One day everything felt perfect. The next, I felt completely abandoned. But I kept going back. Because a part of me still believed that was love. That if I just worked harder, stayed loyal, gave more, I would finally feel loved. I thought the little scraps I got were enough. I thought the highs meant it was real. But I was just stuck in a loop. And I didn’t know how to stop it. Because deep down, I wasn’t looking for love. I was looking for someone to give me what I hadn’t given myself. And it wasn’t just romantic. This pattern showed up with friends, family, coworkers, and even bosses. Anywhere there was a power dynamic, I would abandon myself to keep the peace, to feel worthy, to feel wanted. Everything changed when I stopped blaming them And started looking at the part of me that kept saying yes to it. I did the inner child work. I faced the part of me that was still operating from survival. And once I started giving that part of me what it actually needed The cycle broke. Now I no longer attract those kinds of relationships. Because I no longer relate to myself in the way that created them. I stopped choosing pain. I stopped normalizing chaos. I started choosing people, environments, and opportunities that actually feel safe. Not just familiar to my wounds. Because the moment I gave myself what I was always chasing I stopped suffering through relationships that could never hold me. Have you ever wondered why you kept attracting the same type of relationships?