In today’s world, instant gratification has quietly become the yardstick we use to measure success. But you are in a process. Awareness is the first step, but it is only the beginning. You have seen something you can no longer unsee. You are thinking differently. You are choosing differently. Now you have to allow time and reality to catch up with your new beliefs. Because there will be an in-between. The old reality hasn’t fully disappeared. The new reality hasn’t fully materialised. And this is often where doubt creeps back in. Don’t mistake the absence of immediate evidence for the absence of change. Keep going. Keep choosing from the woman you are becoming, not the circumstances you are leaving behind. It is here, in the in-between, where the scales begin to tip. I'm so proud of every single one of you on this journey!👊👌💥

Hi beautiful people! I completed my 7 day Pattern Interrupt on Sunday. I find myself 2 days later still just needing to pause in this present moment, savoring what it feels like to be ok. For the first time in a long time I know with sovereign certainty that I am going to be ok. I took my journey offline with Surina, as it felt to raw and tender to share yet. I need some time to process and metabolize this sacred journey. I love what Surina said to me, "I want everyone to feel this is a safe space to finally tell the truth.......to let it all out and bare your deepest soul." There will come a time when I am ready to share my whole story. But for now, this image that AVA created from my art, says more than I ever could. This is me and I am SOVEREIGN. I am so grateful for this journey and so excited for what AVA will mean to so many people!!! Lots of love and huge hugs!!

Where I'm Hiding I realized today that I've been hiding from almost everything — community, friendship, support, asking, work, visibility, my own authenticity. I thought the fear underneath it was simply fear of being hurt or failing. But there's another layer. I've changed so much over the last few years. Wife. Change in relationship identities, moving several times, joining a family, now being single again. Menopause has changed me physically and emotionally too. I've been through so many versions of myself that I don't fully know who I am right now. And I think I'm afraid to let people really know me when I don't fully know or accept this version of myself yet. Maybe I'm afraid that if I haven't accepted this new woman, other people won't either. And if nobody gets close enough to know me, they can't reject or judge the parts of me I'm still learning to accept. The honest word underneath all of it: petrified. And yet connection is how I've always found my way in the world. So hiding protects me from being hurt, but it also keeps me from being known.

I love the people who I get to meet on this journey of becoming. Karin thank you for sharing your voice with us! https://www.skool.com/surinaj-9674/classroom/e18c3077?md=39938285e6674ed6b27a14256d7c66bb

I choose to put myself out into the world intentionally and be seen, even when I might get hurt. And I can be courageous without feeling strong.